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The lady at the Wendy's counter asked my 2nd youngest sister and I,  "Are you two sisters?" So then I answered yes, followed by my sister also saying yes. The lady asked for our names, so I said "Alan". Then I said the name of my sister. The lady liked me and my sister's names. That was affirming for me thst she liked my name and recognized me as a girly. Thanks for reading!

My $99 deposit from my xxx site came in today which paid off the internet bill debt of $45 dollars. I used $50, about most what was left, to play at Chumba Casino because I'm loss chasing. I won like $260, that was cool. I took $60 for DoorDash GC, and $200 for cash.  Also earlier I wrote Winbonanza for compensation after losing $1,258. They gave me $10 worth of SC, which I worked up to $37+ then lost. I also lost out on that $125 survey that was offered to me because I didn't receive the link, unfortunately. Also, yesterday morning I finally was approved and sent a $400 gift card for a study which involved me sending a company in India my Tax, banking and payment information. I was rejected at first, twice, but I wrote them persistently and I was finally approved. I tried taking money off of that gift card to convert it to real world debt card money, however it didn't work out right and I had to refund it back from my other debit card back to the original gift card. Now th...

I feel so bad right now. I cancled my $1,258 redemption on Winbonanza in hopes of making more money and I lost it down to $60.39. I feel so lost and broken right now. And I need work training in the morning, so I'm going to be waking up pretty tired. Thanks for reading. Update: at 2:53am I lost the rest of it. I played hot Ross and lost my $60 down to like $40, then played a $40 bonus on hacksaw gaming Life and Death game, which I won just like $3 dollars back. Then I played 3 Wicked Devils where I lost my last $4.32 down to zero. I feel so sad, I should have just kept my balance and wait for the redemption to go through, even though they were delaying it. I feel so upset, especially since my 2nd eldest sis got taken away earlier for another overdose attempt. [Plesse call 988 if you feel suicidal] My life is just, falling apart. Thanks for reading.

So I was waiting in line at Walmart customer service to try and get back the black trash bags that we forgot after checking out a few days. There was a long line at the customer service, a customer was heading towards the line, so I backed up, but then I walked my back into a cash register counter which really hurt my spine.  That happened like an hour or two ago, but mu back is still in lots of pain. Also, fortunately my 2nd youngest sis and I were able to get a complimentary pack of black garbage bags since the service desk wasn't able to locate the missing bags, so we thanked the Walmart person. My spine feels like it was shot with a bullet, probably some of the worst pain I've felt in a while. But, I'm glad that I was able to make way for the customer coming through. Thanks for reading!

So tonight I received the $505 that I withdrew from LoneStarCasino, and then I put about $510 into Winbonanza since they had some good bonuses, like $190 extra in bonuses. Some moments ago I was at $841, then $800, then about $750, then I played a fish game and won about $517, so then I withdrew at $1258.40.  I celebrated by playing The Lorax on Spotify. That win was the lucky break that I needed to finally get some rest and feel better about my $2300+ losing streak a few days ago. Hopefully I can get back on track to becoming financially stable. Thanks for reading. 1:42am.

Yesterday I asked LoneStarCasino for at least 500 SC compensation, so then in the morning they gave it to me, so that was a bit surprising, so I thanked them and updated my trustpilot review from 1 start to 3. I then played through the SC in order to redeem it. I made it up to $520, I redeemed at $505. Thanks for reading!

Today is training day of work, yez! Also I took the last $15 in my bank and used it on LuckParty casino, I made about $281, then lost it all while waiting for account verification. I feel awful, lol. Also, I gave my last $40 in cash to my brother for gas and stuff, and I spent $20 at Publix prior. So I'm broke now basically, but I did withdraw $99 from my xxx account which should arrive in a few days. Thx for reading!

I tried adding more Ram to my laptop, but it didn't fit, it wasn't compatible. So, that got me pretty sad. I'm also so mad at God, God just ruins everything, God has hurt me on several occasions; I'm just done. Thanks for reading.

I'm still depressed. I tried to win my money back again by depositing a last ditch $29.99, like the last $29 dollars in my account. I deposited it at SpinQuest, they were offering a 15% deposit bonus, so I brought it, and I lost it down to $0.11. I feel even more depressed now. This depression feels so unreal, hopefully I don't mess up my work orientation tomorrow with my sadness. Like $2,385 all gone in one day due to gambling losses. I evaporated my earnings and winnings within 24 hours in an attempt to pay off my negative $100 Chime balance and pay off the $90 laptop payment. Gosh. I want to d1e so bad right now. [Please call 988 if you're feeling similar] At least I was still able to help my family out a bunch this month with my winning streaks. But now, I feel so useless. I feel so hopeless. Thanks for reading.

So, I saw that Yay casino had an offer of $100 for $50, so I went for it, lost it. Then I cancled my $202 redemption on LoneStarCasino trying to chase my $2,000 something, I lost it. So far today I've lost like $2,310.  All the money that I've worked so hard for and won and worked hard for during the past couple of months, all gone. I feel like k!lling myself.  Please call 988 if you feel similar.  Thanks for reading. 11:26pm Update, at 11:46pm I lost another $44 something at Crowncoinscasino, I'm pretty much broke now and still need to make payments for my bills. I'm so depressed. I always purge almost all my money when I'm tired. I try to make more money, lose like $100, get scared and try to make it back only to lose my entire savings. I hate myself, I wish that I can just die, why I'm I even letting this struggle continue on. I feel so blessed to be alive sometimes, but right now I feel like my life is a curse. I get ahead a little bit, only to g...

My younger siblings and I just about finished watching Frozen 2 in full for the first time. Earlier I tried to pay off my $100 debt on Chime, and I also gave my brother $40 for gas, so I gambled $300 with the $345 pack on Yay casino. Then lost it. So I brought a $220 pack for $200, reached $500, then lost it to $0.01. Went to LoneStarCasino and cancled my $1,760 redemption, played with $360 and made it to like $787, lost it, then took $400 from the remaining $1,400, lost that too. Then played with the last $1,000, losing it down to $202.  Gosh, I hate loss chasing. I had a system and it broke. It broke. I was just thinking of banning myself from these casinos earlier today while I was up like $2,000, lol. Thanks for watching!

11pm-ish, my 2nd eldest sis and I walk into Wawa. A brown lady asks me if I'm picking up an Uber or DoorDash, so I'm like, no... She's like, oh okay, babe. You just walked in so that's why I thought. I was like, no worries. Anyway, I go use the restroom then buy two Pokémon HerShe bars.  The brown lady clerk says "I love your eye makeup". I was super flattered, so I'm like, oh thank you! I appreciate it (: Then we tell each other to have a good night after I completed the transaction. Speaking of transaction, I paid another $29 something earlier today to have the lady redo my i9 form because Swiss Colony rejected it because the Photo ID was in the Driver's License category.  A new one was done, but miscommunication lead to the same error. The 3rd time was the charm, though. And I thanked the notary lady for her patience and persistence. Anyway, thanks for reading! We went to CK after Wawa ...

I ordered a couple of Japanese Pokémon cards after I filled out a screener survey regarding Japanese Pokémon cards. I can't believe that I won the trans fox girl  Pokémon, yes! 🩷🤍🩵 Oh yes, and earlier I received $500 from a different survey project that involved Animation and stuff, I thought a few weeks ago that I was kicked out of that survey, but it turns out that I was just disqualified from a different one. So yes, that project was super fun! Also, a few days ago my Daddy helped my big brother trade in his phone at Verizon, and also my Daddy helped me with the i9 notary for my employment at Swiss Colony. It didn't work out, the staff couldn't do notary via my laptop for security reasons. This happened at UPS and Truist.  However, right now, I was able to go on Fiverr and I got  my notary done remotely for only about $29+ dollars. Truly a miracle because I've had this notary problem all month long and the deadline w...

Me back then Vs. Me Today Even at 5, I had self doubt, and I crumbled up my paperwork, but the teacher, she un-crumbled it and assured me that it was good. That encouraged me to keep trying with stuff, I guess.  I had some bullies back then back in my kinder era, twice my life was put in danger by other 5ers, but then they temporarily wanted to be my friend after they saw that I was granted candy from the teacher. That was pretty funny. Also, I earned that candy as a gift after complimenting the teacher. [I miss my teacher, but at least we got to see each other again by chance several years later at Panera Bread, so that was super cool!] Many graduated before me, such as my idol Gary, he was brown like me, yet had straight hair, so that to me was so cool, and he was polite as well, so I missed him. Several days later the bully that threatened me with a pencil graduated as well, so that was good. The teacher told me that I'll graduate tomorrow, I was excited about that. ...

1:24pm. I was taking some modeling pictures and the modeling site required underwear photos, so I finally got the chance to put on the underwear set that I brought last year for my new anatomy post Vaginoplasty, although I only got a chance to try on the green bra and panty, and oh girl do they look pretty on me! Thanks for reading! 1:28pm

So my $6 dollar Temu purse finally arrived today at around mid 6pm. I'm pretty excited about it, although I would have liked longer straps on it just like my old purse so I can wear it crossbody.  I had to replace my old $18 walmart purse because it was having problems zipping, unfortunately. I brought that Walmart purse in 2023 so I can have something feminine during my spine surgery. I also had painted my nails purple with surgical pen. I also had changed my gender identity from male to female in my charts.  Thus, I was addressed with feminine pronouns by the surgical staff upon waking up from my surgical, which to me was so slay! Anyway, the new purse is super cute, and it makes a good temporary replacement. Thanks for reading!

At 3:35pm, I placed a cute sticker above the power outlet in my room to give the space some feminine energy 💖 Thanks for reading! Before & After.

👁 Found out that there's a scar on my neck, I feel so disappointed. Its a small scar, but my body dysphoria makes it 100x times larger than it actually is. Luckily I get to speak with my therapist today. Hopefully my scar goes away soon. I noticed that my neck was bl3eding yesterday or so after an electric razor accident, I hoped that it was just bl0od from another area that just dripped down to my neck. But, it looks like I was wrong. I mean, I guess having a scar on my neck does fit my edgy style and its not the first scar on my neck. Thanks for reading!

My elder siblings were at work at T-mobile, but I had to use the restroom. I didn't want to enter their workplace to tell them that I'm going to Dunkin, so I left text messages and a note. I then walked to Dunkin which wasn't very far away. I then ordered a Dunkin cup of milk and Glazzed donut. I was afraid of ordering the coffee or blended drinks there because of shared equipment and food sensitivities. I retrieved the milk and donut from the Dunkin lady and thank her. I then use the women's restroom. I then exit, and pick up the milk and donut I left on the table. I then exit the door. I walk back to the work place. The car was locked, I wasn't fast enough to prevent the auto-lock, but my siblings returned and unlocked the car. I take my estradiol and generic Tylenol in the car, I then notice a hive on my left leg. Drinking the milk produces an itchy throat. I suspect I can't eat the donut since it must have even more allergen contamination, I offer the donut ...