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More Love for Mommy

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Thank You For Always Being there For Me ♡ Watching your funeral was powerful in profound sadness, but remembering the good times and knowing that one day we'll be together again brought powerful happiness. Maybe one day will see each other again, but for now you're still part of me Mommy, you are my DNA, my Blood, my Love. I still don't accept your demise, I only accept your life, and I'm honored to of had shared that life with you, and I'm honored to be your daughter and have you as my Mother, and you better be able to see what I'm writing right now because it's so beautiful and it's making me feel emotional. I hope you feel my love and positive energy for you, Mommy ♡ I still miss your texts that end with a heart emoji ♡ Forever in my heart, my friend. 12 17am

Family Lunch

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After my Mom's funeral, my uncle treated my family and extended family to Outback. My uncle's wife complimented my face, she said that my face is so beautiful, so I thanked her and said you, too. She also complimented my eyeliner and the drawing I made of me and my Mom. My Daddy liked the drawing, too. I showed the finished drawing to him first because he asked if I finished it, so then I showed him. Also, my uncle's wife liked how independent I was because I had my work phone. She said, you're like "Ms. Independent". I smiled, and I was like yeah. After that my father next to me at the table began to use she/her pronouns for me instead of he/him, so that so, so affirming for me and so sweet. For lunch I had seltzer water and fries and chicken tenders. There was an appetizer of brown bread earlier, I declined it cause I wasn't sure what it contained. My uncle's wife asked if I was trying to keep my figure, so I laughed. When asked about the bread later...

Love You 4Ever Mommy

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Love You 4Ever Mommy Thank You For Always Being there For Me ♡

Mommy's Funeral

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The family and I attended Mommy's Requim Funeral service. My Daddy was there and that calmed me to see him again. I did feel some anger and vengeance towards God and the world as a whole, so I smiled thinking about my plans of vengeance, but towards the end of the service I said Amen with the paster and the others. It was emotional seeing my Mom and her Mom in a box, but it was beautiful as well seeing them side by side again. My brother carried my Mom and my uncle carried my Mom's mom. When my siblings were crying during the service I felt so guilty because I knew that it was all my fault. But, after the funeral my brother let me know that it wasn't my fault after I apologized to him and my eldest sister while they were hugging. Also, my uncle's wife drove my siblings and I to the church because my brother was already there at the church with my father and they didn't want to delay, so we got a ride from uncle's wife. My elder sisters and I also got a ride in m...

Funeral

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So today is my Mom's funeral May 19th 2026, so that's pretty sad. I wore the dress I picked out a week ago at the church.  I wore the panty hose that my Mom washed for me, I think. It smelt like her detergent. I also used lavender deodorant, lavender is her favorite scent and plant. Also, my eldest sister asked to borrow my stockings.

I lost a free $88+ Dollars

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I lost a free $88+ dollars. I was playing a free $1 dollar on Zula casino and I worked it up to like $88+ but then I lost it down to like $9, then got it back up to like $50 something then down to $0.08 cents. Don't play the Hacksaw Gaming Games, they're break your soul. At least I got to test out my new phone's gaming capabilities to the max. Although, I think I lost the most money once I moved my gameplay over to my PC. Gosh, I got greedy, I tried to climb that $80 to $800 like last time. Gosh, the pain hurts so, so bad right now. Thanks for reading. 1:39am.

Ammonite

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I was depressed out of mind, so I drew this Ammonite [39] to pass the time. I haven't drew an Ammonite in a long time, so drawing one again was pretty helpful for me mentally. Art is truly something that gives me that gives me that extra reason to live life. I think without my creative expression I'd be almost totally completely consumed by depressed right now. Art gives me an escape and an outlet.  Be it drawing, singing, painting or rhyming, art gives me permission to stop thinking about all the things that are depressing. Anyway, Thanks for reading ♡ Art Stats: Creature:  Cretaceous Ammonite. Medium:  S23 Galaxy U Stylus & Autodesk Sketchbook. Side Note: I've been using Autodesk stuff for over 13 years, I should probably work for them by now as a brand ambassador, lol.