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I'm sad that my (Vag) has a scar, I just noticed today. As if I wasn't going through enough already, now my kitty has a 1/³ inch scar ): I hope it wasn't from when I was shaving the other day, I hate Amazon E-Razors ]:  Life is going down hill so fast. Maybe lazor treatment can reduce the scar? I do hope so. I do hope so.  Also, I think I'm going to sell my new phone to try and pay off yhe $800 storage bill, because if I lose my and family's stuff, I'll definitely go permanently insane, and that scars me so much.  I actually could have paid the storage off if I didn't try to make more money with the money I've won already from gambling, I had at least $1000 just days ago, but hundreds in bills to be paid, $800 storage, $300 pawn. My older sister who was employed didn't want to help pay at the time for the family storage unit and stuff, so then I knew that it was all up to me to fix the problem. I thought that I could try to make more money by playing...

I accidentally scratched myself when thinking of a scenario of being in the mental hospital and my brother calling me with "I'm very sorry, Alan". As he explains that we lost the storage. I then scream, Nooo!!! Then kill myself. Then the mental hospital staff calls my brother to inform him about my death. While thinking of that stuff, I then accidentally scratched my hand, och. Thanks for reading. And please call 988 if you too feel like all hope is gone. Thank you.

4:46pm. Moments ago I noticed that the $45 payment to keep the internet on didn't go through with my bank as yet, I still had like $70 something left in my bank so I made a $69.99 purchases at SpinBlitz for a $98 SC pack. In moments I turned the $98 into about $155,  but from then on my balance drained to under 0.10 cents. I'm doomed. I sooo hate myself right now. I was Uber rich, I had like $1000+ but the thought of paying a $780 and $330 bill alone drove me even more into a state of desperation and depression, I lost everything within 4 days. I should kill myself, I really should. Thanks for reading.  And please call 988 if you feel similar. Thank you.

I hate myself. In the morning I brought the $49.99 pack for $100 SC on Yay Casino and worked it up to like $168, but then gradually lost it all down to $0.06. I wish I cashed out, but I had hope to make it up to at least $700 like where I was a few days before. I hate myself for that. I'm so numb, I have like 9 days left to pay for the storage and I can't. Also, I had $17 something that I got for free with Pulz free spins, and I lost that as well. I'm in so much pain. Thanks for reading.

So I noticed that my labia vagina had a raised scar, hopefully that wasn't from me shaving that area yesterday, or any day, that'll suck if I accidentally inflicted such a scar on my beautiful vagina.  I noticed the scar after some vaginal photography. Speaking of which, I had a dream that I had $700 something in, and another $700 something coming in, I wish that was reality, I have $7 dollars and about $100 come in today, though. 7 from a survey, 100 from LoneStarCasino, now the wifi bill will get paid for. Also, in my dream I was going to play with my post orchiectomy penis and my flat-chested it's in the bathtub with Vaseline and I had my black phone with me to watch videos, however I kept getting interrupted so I kept having to re-dress. I'm glad it was just a dream and I don't actually have a penis still. That dream inspired me to play with myself in the bathtub today, luckily my siblings were sleeping so I wasn't interrupted. No Vaseline though, just Olay....

I only tried to make more money, but I failed miserably. Moonspin took my last $10, but to be fair there was a $5 monthly maintenance fee on the Walmart card. I feel like such a failure.  Also, I haven't been doing good mentally lately, what do you do when you once again lose $1,000+ for nothing?  I was blessed with that $1K, I was hit with that $800 storage unit bill, I tried to make more money, lost the $1K in the process and now I'm once again a suicidal mess. I've been screaming in pain earlier today, my siblings had to calm me down. I blamed the storage not getting paid and my Mom's death on myself so much that it's hard to live with myself. I explained to my brother that I thought my sister would help me with the storage, but when she refused I felt like it was all on me. (The moment she refused to pay, I went into full gambling mode. I wanted to make hundreds more off of my $1K, because I had the $780 storage to pay, plus the $300 pawned jewelry, plus the int...