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Harming me knee

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I went all out on my right legs and knee after attacking myself in anger towards myself earlier because my mom and bro were upset that our storage was going into actuation if we didn't pay about $300. I felt extremely guilty because I had the money a few days ago but lost it trying to make more money, so I wanted to di3, so I hurt my knee and thigh at the very least. I was l screamed this to myself, "why didn't you k1ll yourself!!!!" And I began to impulsively injury my already damaged knee. My mom didn't want me to di3 and stuff, so she was like, Alan please don't k1ll yourself. And she said that I was a beautiful person, so I appreciated that. Also, Before going into Walmart I screamed at myself. My mom was like, take my hand, then she was saying to me that it wasn't my fault and stuff like that. So, that was pretty touching. Anyway, I'm at Publix now and both my knees hurt like hell. Like I was telling my mom earlier, I'm in hell, how did I get ...

I drew Queen Cyant

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Original Character ♡ Queen Cyant!

I lost about $24 dollars

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I stayed up at around 3am to late 3am last night to complete the survey worth $25 dollars, only to lose most of it in the morning to Pulz Bingo and Pulz Casino. These slots suck. Thanks for reading.

1:07am I lost $180+

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I worked up my $2 something in free play on LoneStarCasino up to $180 eventually after playing hours and hours, then I ended up losing it all. I Blame the long verification process and also the fact that my $180 something turned to $160 after verification was completed, so I tried to make it back then it went down to $130, $100, $30, $13, $0. I hate my life. We checked into the new hotel at least. Thanks for reading. I also received 30 free spins on SpinBlitz after making my negative review. I made $9 something from the free spins, then eventually worked up to $33 on other slots, lost it all. Worked my LoneStarCasino account up to $180 from $130, but you already know what happens next, F-ing lost it all. I feel so depressed right now. Thanks for reading, please call 988 if you're feeling similar.

My eldest sis stayed in the bathroom with me

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Late 10pm, I went to check on my eldest sis in the 7-Eleven women's restroom as my eldest bro suggested. So I go into 7-Eleven to check on her and use the restroom. I checked on her, she was okay. I thought she was going to be too concerned about me using the women's restroom, but instead she said "I thought you said you were going to use the restroom?". So then I was like, oh yes, thanks for reminding me (: So then I used the bathroom stall. I thought my sister left long before I heard a stranger walk into the restroom's neighboring stall. I waited for the stranger to leave before exiting my stall because I didn't want the stranger lady to be transphobic to me and stuff, even though that wouldn't be likely, I just wanted to make sure. Anyway, she leaves, then I exit my stall and see that my sister was still in the restroom with me. That to me was very touching, so I thanked her. She held the door open for me too. Which reminds me, before I use...

Checked out of Hotel

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It was a pretty wild stay at StayBridge, lots of drama, almost never boring and always exciting when things weren't boring. Thanks for reading!

I won a $34.50 Gift Card

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We were moving out of the hotel, I sat down for a while because my vag vag still hurts from a few days ago.  Also I just helped my 2nd younger sis lift a huge 3D printer into the car, I haven't lifted something so heavy since my vagy surgery. Anyway, I sat down in the hotel green chair, Then while playing some $0.50 cents free play on chumbacasino after leaving a negative review on SpinBlitz because they kinda ruined my life, I ended up winning about $31.12 in a few minutes. A small win after so much loss, but much needed today. Anyway, I cash out $30 DoorDash cause there's a 15% bonus on that gift card, granting me a $34.50 gift card in the end. I gambled the remaining $1.12 and lost horribly. Speaking of horrible, my stomach feels horrible after trying to move the bell hop closer like my mom had asked, but the staybridge bell hop is hell to move and also heavy so I ended up hurting my belly badly. Anyway, the DoorDash gift card is on my account now, so I'm grateful. Thank...