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11:47pm The Girls

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So my Daddy and younger siblings picked up our sister, my 2nd eldest sis, from work. Then my Daddy was talking to her about picking her up next time, he said something like: "Next time the girls will come with us". That to me was pretty affirming, because I'm thinking he included me when he said girls. And I was thinking at Walmart that he probably still sees me as a boy based on how he talks to me about not using the women's bathroom like last year and stuff. So, I'm cautious about using the restroom and stuff around him. Anyway, I'm glad I was included in his girl group verbiage, I think. Love it! Thanks for reading!

11:31pm Winz

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So basically after shopping at Walmart with my Daddy and 2nd youngest sister. I put $20 of my $20 something left of my visa GC from that $125 survey into HardRockBet and I eventually made it up to like $118 dollars. I witdrew the $101 and lost the $17. I can live with that. Thanks for reading!

8:44pm More Whirlwinds

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I finally received my $125 from a long survey I participated in. I put $100 into Play Bracco, a casino app that I downloaded some days ago. They had a $200 for $100 bonus, so I took it. The extra $100 bonus grew to $227, but I lost it because 20x play requirements were crazy, and I eventually lost that down to $0.10 cents. My $99 in cash on my account, I got that up to like $180 something by playing Alice Wonderstruck, or whatever it's called. I was thinking to myself about dressing up as Alice for Halloween, then I thought that's such a cliche costume for a trans girl. Then I received a Facebook notification about someone liking my gameplay post about my massive Win on that 3 Oaks gaming 1000x Fortune game. I won $20 dollars on a $1.25 spin. He followed me, his name was Dylan, which was inspiring because my Mom and I would talk about the trans influencer know as Dylan. Anyway, on the Alice slot game, I thought of dressing up as Alice if I get the scatter bonus, I d...

7:13pm full fledged depression

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I received $25 from a survey I did a couple of days ago, it became like $23 once it hit my bank. I transferred it into Vemno which I had a dollar fifty in that account, so then I paid HardRockBet $24, giving my HardRockBet account $24.25 total and I lost it down to $0.01. I feel so freaking awful, I feel sick. Thanks for reading.

6:31pm depression

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After receiving the $89 from bux777, I put $39.99 into bux777 and received $20 extra, the playthrough requirements were ridiculously high, like $200, I ended up losing. I then put some of my money into HardRockBet and won some and lost some and lost some. Also there was a six hour study that pays $120, so I took it, but my iPhone audio wasn't good enough for the study, so I had to leave. I gambled some more on HardRockBet and won some more. I eventually had like $100 something. I put $50 into ZumbaCards after receiving an email about 20 free spins. Those free spins got me like $4 to play with, I lost it. So yes, I put the $50 into Zumba for the $125 pack. I got up to $200 something, but the playthrough requirements in order to withdraw weren't budging much, so I played some more and quickly lost it all. Also... I put like my last $50 into HardRockBet and got up to like $93 again, I thought to myself that'll stop at $80, but I didn't because I lost too much, then I lost ...

9:06am Strategy

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So I woke up at 5 something am and clocked in at 6am to do some work till 8 something am. I then check into the casino that I partnered with a few days ago, the bux777, and I played with my $12 dollars of free play I collected. I manged to get it all the way up to $130, but the playthrough requirements were brutal. I was able to withdraw at $103, but I tried to make more money, it didn't end well, but I managed to stop my losses at around $90, and I received about $89 dollars to my accounts a few moments after the withdrawal, so that was much faster than I expected. Thanks for reading!

9:28pm observations

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I had hopes for 2026; however it's just been mostly tragedy and sadness so far. There's been good things, but I've been consumed by the bad things, my mind is just always numb, I feel like I'm already in hell, I'm not sure if this life is 100% real or not, or just some torture test. December/January: Evictions and hotel living. February: we move back to our abandoned house with the holes in the roof, then a bigger hole forms and a big section of the roof falls off. This gets fixed end of March. March: I go to the mental hospital because I felt like I ruined my family's life and I couldn't live with myself. My Mom goes to the ER weeks later. April: My Mother passes away, I become heart broken and go to the mental hospital again. May: My first birthday without my Mom, so it felt like hell and also my mind wasn't feeling too well. Also in May, my Mom's funeral, a lot of people were crying, but I was so out of it by then that I was actually s...