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I finally got my gaming chair back from the storage shed tonight, which is great because now I have my own bed since who knows how long. Thanks for reading!

Late 12pm-ish, My brother stopped at Wawa for me so I can use the bathroom. I held the main door open for a guy. Then at restroom, I held the door open for a mommy and her toddler baby so they can exit. Then I entered the wawa stall where I washed up in the stall and soon exited. I had fears of people misgendering me in the store. I thought to myself, it's like someone calling me a Dalek, I'm not a Dalek. (I'm a woman). Then I saw that my brother got 3 musketeers for me. That was so nice of him. I soon thanked him. Brother then opened the door for a guy approaching, I went out of his way. The guy told me, "You can go ahead.  Ladies first, always" That made me smile. I was like, Thank you! Thanks for reading.

At 11:03am. I heard, ma'am, I put my head up like and said, hmm ! The SMAady had a bowl of lollipops and asked me, Ma'am do you want any? I was like, sure ♡ So then I went to get up, but my purse was caught, so I tried again. I selected a red pop, I wanted the green one, but that one was too far down in the bowl and I didn't want to contaminate the ones at the top, so I just carefully selected a red one.  The red one is flavored lemony strawberry. I'm kinda nervous about that flavor, lol. Also, I'm at SMA waiting room for my brother's appointment. I actually had a dream that I went to the mental hospital, I think it was like the one I went to a few weeks ago. You know there was a golden bionicle card in my dream, it was magnetic. Also, I think someone mentioned me in the dream. They mentioned something about a 26 year old lady when I was coming out of the bathroom. I'm almost 26. Also. There was a blonde lady about 30. That the patients idolized. Thanks for ...

Desperate to get my money back after losing $24.99 at Spree. I deposited $19.98 from my chime account for the $27 pack at PartyLuck. I gained that money by having an internet tracking device run on my phone run for a month +$10, doing countless surveys $8, and doing several TikTok Live streams $1. I feel sickened to my stomach. I feel so upset. $45 dollars lost for nothing today. And I have my $30 phone bill to pay in 2 days. I feel so sick. What makes me feel a bit better though is that my 2nd youngest sis told me a few moments ago that Evilain (our neighbor) asked my big brother "You have 5 sisters now". I was like, thank you for letting me know what Evilan said. My sis is like, it wasn't in a mean way. I was like, yeah, she is so, so, so nice. It is so TLC. We both smiled. Thanks for reading.

I feel so freaking depressed on top of depressed already with everything going on. I just spent over an hour on a play test to get $25 dollars. I spent that at Spree in order to make more money. I nearly lost it all, but eventually gained it up to like $33+ something, but then I ended up losing it all because of playing some weird penguin king games and some other weird games. I hate this and myself. Thanks for reading.

Today, around early 4pm, we visted Mommy in the ICU, all 6 of us were allowed in the room this time. It was definitely emotional, it was my first time seeing her incubated. I asked a bunch of questions about my mom and her condition, and the nurse promptly answered for us. The nurse asked for our names. I told her my my name is Alan. She later asked if I go by Alan. I was like, yes <: She said, okay just making sure. I also talked about my mom's condition. I asked if her cancer was bone or blood.  The nurse said that it was blood cancer. That made me feel disappointed, but still kinda hopeful for her improvement. She had tubes and machines hooked up to her, that was pretty hard to see. But it also made me optimistic for her recovery. My youngest sibling had to take a break, they left the room and my 2nd youngest sibling and I followed them. Then my my older siblings followed us to the waiting room. My eldest brother stayed. We gathered ourselves. My younger siblings and I eventu...