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I saw that I was eligible for a $40 loan on Chime so I thought of doubling it to pay back the loan and keep a free $40. I ended up losing badly. I feel so disgusted. I brought $30 on Spindo for $50, lost that. $9.99 on Yay Casino for $12, lost that as well and now my lone is gone and I feel even more depressed.

6:40am, I was dreaming in my gaming chair about slots losing and losing at lifing and me going into goth isolation or something and people bullying and hating while I find out thst I don't have to show them anything I'm losing, or how much more goth I'm becoming, or something like that. Then when I try to get away in my dream, I lean too much in real life and fall over in my gaming chair. My nose, spine, everything is hurting, but not as much as my mental pain right now. Depression really does hurt.

On the drive back home from the Mental Hospital in the Z cab, I played some casino sites while chatting with the cab guy. I had like $50 something in my Golden Hearts Games account that was probably finally granted to me while I was at the Mental Hospital after I completed a RevU offer like a month ago and had to go through support multiple times to get my offer to credit. Anyway, I turn that $50 into about $80. Then arrive back home.  I see that Yay Casino has an offer for $100 for $50, so I use like all my PayPal and Charles Schwab money to buy it. I waited and worked so hard for that momey. I lose it all down to $17, run it up to $80, then lose it all again. Then I go back to Golden Hearts, run the $80 down to $60 and below, then up to $100, then down to $40, then $105, and finally $160 after very long hours. Then while preparing to go to sleep in my gaming chair I decide to do some fun free play on Pulz, run a dollar up to $8, then lost it, so close to withdrawing a...

I was finally released from the Mental Hospital, today, yay! Photo taken at 1:51pm. After and Before My awesome pen tattoo I made today below:

After sleeping the night, waking up, and having black coffee, a bit of turkey swiss sandwich and apple slices. I was sent on my way to Jacksonville Mental Hospital via ambulance. Before then I saw the sun, I thought I'd never see the morning again after my passed. I had an emotional conversation over the phone with my brother and other siblings. They love, and I love them.

I was admitted to the hospital, and so was my 2nd youngest sis. Although, my cause was because of my su1cidal ideation, she was admitted because she's having an asthma attack. Before I went and got admitted I went to the restroom. My brother wanted someone to go with me in the stall. My 2nd eldest sister went with me. She wanted to see my pusay, so I showed her. She also wanted to see it open, so I opened it. She also saw my green shorts. Also, after the bathroom trip I had a blood draw, my aunt was there with me. I also had an EKG.