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1:07am I lost $180+

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I worked up my $2 something in free play on LoneStarCasino up to $180 eventually after playing hours and hours, then I ended up losing it all. I Blame the long verification process and also the fact that my $180 something turned to $160 after verification was completed, so I tried to make it back then it went down to $130, $100, $30, $13, $0. I hate my life. We checked into the new hotel at least. Thanks for reading. I also received 30 free spins on SpinBlitz after making my negative review. I made $9 something from the free spins, then eventually worked up to $33 on other slots, lost it all. Worked my LoneStarCasino account up to $180 from $130, but you already know what happens next, F-ing lost it all. I feel so depressed right now. Thanks for reading, please call 988 if you're feeling similar.

My eldest sis stayed in the bathroom with me

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Late 10pm, I went to check on my eldest sis in the 7-Eleven women's restroom as my eldest bro suggested. So I go into 7-Eleven to check on her and use the restroom. I checked on her, she was okay. I thought she was going to be too concerned about me using the women's restroom, but instead she said "I thought you said you were going to use the restroom?". So then I was like, oh yes, thanks for reminding me (: So then I used the bathroom stall. I thought my sister left long before I heard a stranger walk into the restroom's neighboring stall. I waited for the stranger to leave before exiting my stall because I didn't want the stranger lady to be transphobic to me and stuff, even though that wouldn't be likely, I just wanted to make sure. Anyway, she leaves, then I exit my stall and see that my sister was still in the restroom with me. That to me was very touching, so I thanked her. She held the door open for me too. Which reminds me, before I use...

Checked out of Hotel

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It was a pretty wild stay at StayBridge, lots of drama, almost never boring and always exciting when things weren't boring. Thanks for reading!

I won a $34.50 Gift Card

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We were moving out of the hotel, I sat down for a while because my vag vag still hurts from a few days ago.  Also I just helped my 2nd younger sis lift a huge 3D printer into the car, I haven't lifted something so heavy since my vagy surgery. Anyway, I sat down in the hotel green chair, Then while playing some $0.50 cents free play on chumbacasino after leaving a negative review on SpinBlitz because they kinda ruined my life, I ended up winning about $31.12 in a few minutes. A small win after so much loss, but much needed today. Anyway, I cash out $30 DoorDash cause there's a 15% bonus on that gift card, granting me a $34.50 gift card in the end. I gambled the remaining $1.12 and lost horribly. Speaking of horrible, my stomach feels horrible after trying to move the bell hop closer like my mom had asked, but the staybridge bell hop is hell to move and also heavy so I ended up hurting my belly badly. Anyway, the DoorDash gift card is on my account now, so I'm grateful. Thank...

Mirror Decline

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I was behind a building then I looked to see what was in-front, it was auto zone. My therapist and I talked about my fear of driving cars and stuff. She recommended a below 50cc moped since I'm comfortable ridding a scooter and below 50cc mopeds don't require car insurance. Anyway, I try to buy a $4.99 ($5.36 after tax) car mirror at auto zone, but my cards kept declining. I used to have $15 something on my card after all the gambling brought it down to that number, but it turned out that now I have about a dollar. And my chime cards, they declined as well. The cashier guy he was like, well, it didn't like one didn't work either ma'am. He then called his buddy, like it looks like we're going to need some help here (or something like that). Anyway, after seeing my low balances, I was like it looks like they locked up my card, I'll go come back later, sorry and thank you.  I was going to return the mirror, but he had taken care of for me so I thanked him. Well...

I spoke with my Therapist

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I spoke with therapist, she asked about my chin so I explained that I was shaving with dollar store razors and had a little accident. She was like, sorry ♡ I was like, thanks. I was like, at least the cut is heart shaped. We also talked about financial issues, gambling winning and losing, x working, family money supporting, daddy issues, job hunting and sites scamming. It was an amazing discussion. Also, before therapy I accidentally cut the side of my face while shaving while I was thinking of doing a video of asking how to approach my x working offers, then I got a nic on the side of my face producing a heart shaped cut. I actually felt better with the injury and the cut on my face, the gambling losses felt much better. Good thing I had brought bandages at the dollar store along with the razors. Anyway, please call 988 if you'...