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I finished setting up my new S23 Ultra earlier today, which was pretty phone. Case, stickers, accounts, all setup. The screen protector was not as advertised, I didn't want a hole near the fingerprint reader, yet there's a hole near the fingerprint reader. Also, the phone was locked, even though it was advertised as unlocked so I had to dance around that until I was finally able to unlock it. Also, I called Discover to see if I can dispute my SpinBlitz transactions, I was transferred a few times, the reps were nice, but unfortunately in the end there was nothing that could be done. I thanked them anyway. Although, earlier today that $18+ Uber Eats charge on my PayPal was finally taken care of and refunded to me. I later took $9.99 of that to Thrill Coins casino, because they had a $30 coin package for $9.99. I lost horribly and I feel horrible about it. I knew that this casino was a scam based on the trust pilot reviews, but I took the risk anyway because I just wanted my money...

$o I think $80+ went to groceries x food today, I'm happy to contribute to my sibling hive.

In a desperate move, I brought a $12.50 coin pack from Spree Casino for $9.99, and I lost it all in no time. I think Spree is rigged, this particular Casino always triggers my huge loss chases and losing sprees. F them. The $9.99 came out of my $40 Chine loan. Now I have about a dollar left. The other $28.88 something went to McDonaldz, I treated my siblings and I to McDonaldz earlier, but unfortunately the nuggets were less than satisfactory, and I brought 40 of them, a lot went to waste, and I still feel nauseous. I hate my life. Also, I tried to get at a $2,000 loan to pay off the storage, but I've failed, I got approved for a $5K loan, but needed a co-signer, I asked my farther but unfortunately it didn't work. I thanked him and he thanked me for trying. Also, my brother told me not to sell my phone because I need it, and he let me know that we were approved for benefits, so I thanked him. He also hugged me, so that was nice. Thanks for reading. ...

So my brother was asking me if I was ready to make the payment for the $780 storage unit. He told me that my 2nd eldest sister is willing to help. He asked how much I have, I was like maybe about $100... I then explained that I lost my momey from scams. I wish that my sister agreed to help me pay earlier because it could have been done,  but instead I had too much pressure on me, and I tried to make more money and I got scammed. He's like, I'll let her know. I saw him by the door with the door open with his hand in his face obviously upset. I apologized and explained that it was too much pressure, I was facing hundreds of dollars in bills. Anyway, I feel so beyond guilty right now. I feel like killing myself and stuff. [Call 988 if you feel the same]. Anyway, I'll try to sell my new phone at least, I also tried taking out loans earlier today. Gosh, I was ahead. I remember on the 12th of May at church after we were picking out clothes for my Mom's funeral, I received $12...

I had a dream that my Mom was successfully revived because I didn't give up on her. We then went to the mall and she sang my name for a Christmas card. I also got bit by a spider in my dream, but I didn't care because I was with my Mom again. My 2nd dream after that, my Mom was in the ICU room and my siblings and I had to step out because the doctor had to run tests, just like what happened last month.. I have a good dream about my Mom, then my mind pivots back to what happened to her in reality. What is this? -- I slept for countless hours because I wanted to have another dream about my Mom after the good mall dream. Sometimes, I just want to live in a sleeping state, but I guess I can't do that. You know after the depression comes the obsession. My OCD has reached a new level quite possibly. Thanks for reading.

[Last post for the night, I'm sorry but I just looked too cute in this cap, so I had to take a snap.] Anyway, Maybe the reason that so many bad things are happening to me could be something out there trying to harden my soul spiritually for the inevitable War of biblical portion! Maybe the war is psychological, perhaps the key to saving me and my family lies within... Me... If I can get my stuff together and sorted out, I can be so, so powerful, you know, maybe the next Beyoncé? Or TayTay?  Or maybe even better, an OG, 100% ME, but still powerful though like my idols.  I don't know, it's 11:07pm at night and I'm still grief stricken after losing my Mommy and I'm ired, tired, tired, but that's just it, Mommy never wanted me to give up in times of adversity, so I'll continue to be strong and fulfill a legacy ♡  Thank you for reading, truly.  11:09pm. #transgirl #cutetrans #cosplaygirl #gothgirl #transwoman 11:11pm 11:14pm