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I'm still depressed. I tried to win my money back again by depositing a last ditch $29.99, like the last $29 dollars in my account. I deposited it at SpinQuest, they were offering a 15% deposit bonus, so I brought it, and I lost it down to $0.11. I feel even more depressed now. This depression feels so unreal, hopefully I don't mess up my work orientation tomorrow with my sadness. Like $2,385 all gone in one day due to gambling losses. I evaporated my earnings and winnings within 24 hours in an attempt to pay off my negative $100 Chime balance and pay off the $90 laptop payment. Gosh. I want to d1e so bad right now. [Please call 988 if you're feeling similar] At least I was still able to help my family out a bunch this month with my winning streaks. But now, I feel so useless. I feel so hopeless. Thanks for reading.

So, I saw that Yay casino had an offer of $100 for $50, so I went for it, lost it. Then I cancled my $202 redemption on LoneStarCasino trying to chase my $2,000 something, I lost it. So far today I've lost like $2,310.  All the money that I've worked so hard for and won and worked hard for during the past couple of months, all gone. I feel like k!lling myself.  Please call 988 if you feel similar.  Thanks for reading. 11:26pm Update, at 11:46pm I lost another $44 something at Crowncoinscasino, I'm pretty much broke now and still need to make payments for my bills. I'm so depressed. I always purge almost all my money when I'm tired. I try to make more money, lose like $100, get scared and try to make it back only to lose my entire savings. I hate myself, I wish that I can just die, why I'm I even letting this struggle continue on. I feel so blessed to be alive sometimes, but right now I feel like my life is a curse. I get ahead a little bit, only to g...

My younger siblings and I just about finished watching Frozen 2 in full for the first time. Earlier I tried to pay off my $100 debt on Chime, and I also gave my brother $40 for gas, so I gambled $300 with the $345 pack on Yay casino. Then lost it. So I brought a $220 pack for $200, reached $500, then lost it to $0.01. Went to LoneStarCasino and cancled my $1,760 redemption, played with $360 and made it to like $787, lost it, then took $400 from the remaining $1,400, lost that too. Then played with the last $1,000, losing it down to $202.  Gosh, I hate loss chasing. I had a system and it broke. It broke. I was just thinking of banning myself from these casinos earlier today while I was up like $2,000, lol. Thanks for watching!

11pm-ish, my 2nd eldest sis and I walk into Wawa. A brown lady asks me if I'm picking up an Uber or DoorDash, so I'm like, no... She's like, oh okay, babe. You just walked in so that's why I thought. I was like, no worries. Anyway, I go use the restroom then buy two Pokémon HerShe bars.  The brown lady clerk says "I love your eye makeup". I was super flattered, so I'm like, oh thank you! I appreciate it (: Then we tell each other to have a good night after I completed the transaction. Speaking of transaction, I paid another $29 something earlier today to have the lady redo my i9 form because Swiss Colony rejected it because the Photo ID was in the Driver's License category.  A new one was done, but miscommunication lead to the same error. The 3rd time was the charm, though. And I thanked the notary lady for her patience and persistence. Anyway, thanks for reading! We went to CK after Wawa ...

I ordered a couple of Japanese Pokémon cards after I filled out a screener survey regarding Japanese Pokémon cards. I can't believe that I won the trans fox girl  Pokémon, yes! 🩷🤍🩵 Oh yes, and earlier I received $500 from a different survey project that involved Animation and stuff, I thought a few weeks ago that I was kicked out of that survey, but it turns out that I was just disqualified from a different one. So yes, that project was super fun! Also, a few days ago my Daddy helped my big brother trade in his phone at Verizon, and also my Daddy helped me with the i9 notary for my employment at Swiss Colony. It didn't work out, the staff couldn't do notary via my laptop for security reasons. This happened at UPS and Truist.  However, right now, I was able to go on Fiverr and I got  my notary done remotely for only about $29+ dollars. Truly a miracle because I've had this notary problem all month long and the deadline w...

Me back then Vs. Me Today Even at 5, I had self doubt, and I crumbled up my paperwork, but the teacher, she un-crumbled it and assured me that it was good. That encouraged me to keep trying with stuff, I guess.  I had some bullies back then back in my kinder era, twice my life was put in danger by other 5ers, but then they temporarily wanted to be my friend after they saw that I was granted candy from the teacher. That was pretty funny. Also, I earned that candy as a gift after complimenting the teacher. [I miss my teacher, but at least we got to see each other again by chance several years later at Panera Bread, so that was super cool!] Many graduated before me, such as my idol Gary, he was brown like me, yet had straight hair, so that to me was so cool, and he was polite as well, so I missed him. Several days later the bully that threatened me with a pencil graduated as well, so that was good. The teacher told me that I'll graduate tomorrow, I was excited about that. ...