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Project Rejection

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With my younger siblings browsing low budget snacks at Walmart on a $5 dollar budget, I received an email describing how I've been rejected from the Google Research project. This really hurts because I've been spending a while on getting approval to join this and I've already met the eligibility, only to be turned down today. This to me was devastating, there goes my future and the $500 I could have made within 3 weeks. Also, my laptop is still broken, and so is my heart. Thanks for reading..

Life falling apart

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8:23pm right now. I'm in so much mental pain and deposit because I can't get my Lenovo Legion Laptop to boot back on, I've tried everything. Earlier today our neighbor gave us his extension cord so that way we can use his power as a temporary solution to our electrically problem. I had a job interview over the phone which went okay, could of been better. Later, we went on a trip, dropped off my eldest sis at her job on boarding and picked up Daddy at his hotel where he was residing and we dropped him off at his job interview at the aircraft carrier. I brought my laptop with me for once, I haven't in a few days, I brought it just in case there was a survey that I needed to attend. My Laptop got bounced around in the car a lot and I constantly had to secure it. I ended up not even using my laptop on the trip in the end, and I couldn't of either because I forgot the charger. When we finally got back home tonight, I plugged it in, went to use the restroom and I come bac...

1:58am Digital Decay

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Frustration is what this year has been, so thank you Satan ♡◇♡◇♡ I make a little progression, then everything collapses upon the weight of disappointment, accusation, distraction and depression.  15 years of content creation, only to be further behind than I've been before. I have tens of thousands of hours of videos, tutorials and photo carousels, but de-monetization has ruined the dream that I've worked years to achieve and now I'm looking like a pathetic e-begger. E-beggers, ha I used to frown upon them, but now I'm becoming one, what is this? Probably the abyss, but at least I'm honest.  Too much to handle, I think I need to vomit.  Get a job they say, I go on the job hunt, they mock me for it, but I get the XP I needed to keep hunting. I get the job, but orientation is months away, I'm optimistic about it. I had projects and interviews coming up, I'm excited for it, then the power blacks out, I guess someone didn't pay. Why should this e...

Lost Power

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If I don't post for a month this is why. Trolls, read closely, you'd love what's happening right now. Right before my eyes the electricity turned off, oh my. Now, a lot of y'all will tell me to get a job in the comments, so to that I'll say too little too late, and that I have acquired a job, but my job orientation is in September. Nevertheless, the power should be restored next month if my dad utilizes the social security benefit to pay for it like last time. This sux, lol, but at least it's only for about 15-20 days. So the Electricity to the house got cut off just a little before the groceries arrived. My dad texted that it's $1,205.82 to reconnect the power. A little higher than my $900 estimate. If someone rich would like to help, like a tech CEO or something, my CashApp is $agoPalm and my Chime is $agoTree. I'm just throwing it out there, because what if. Anyway, Now without a working fridge, I'll try my best to drink  my new carton...

2:21pm I won and lost $130

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Yesterday I finally get my incentive of $190 from a pretty personal video study that I completed some days prior.  I took my gift card and converted into money that can be used in the store by using an app. I buy a bunch of groceries and stuff. I take $50 from the $190 to use at Yay Casino. I use it at Yay Casino for the $100 for $50 pack and I worked it down to $66 then up to $130.20, I then withdrew a gift card which arrived today. This gift card, I tried to use it in the app that converts it to real money, however it didn't work this time. So then I tried to gamble with it to turn it into real life money. I go to LoneStarCasino, they had a $49.99 for $90 pack, I brought that and lost most of it, brought it back to like $50 then lost it on Outsourced. Then I tried Megabonanza, the $74.99 for $92 pack, I was surprised that the card even went through there. So yes, I lose that money as well. I buy a $5 pack for $4.99 with the last of my money, and I lose that on Megabonanza as well...

12:07pm I injured my chin

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My brother was in the front bathroom, so then I decided to use the back bathroom. I just moved my phone charger, move a bucket and opened a doort, I thought to myself that I should wash my hands before using the toilet so I don't infect my vagina, I thought that my mom was telling me that. I decided not to wash my hands and just use the bathroom quickly, but as I lifted my shirt I went to fast and cut open my chin with my thumb nail and I said, ahough!!! At least I took an Amazon brand Tylenol some moments before this happened. I just took one though because I lost one and I didn't expect much pain this morning, I was wrong.  I was also in hurry because I had food in the microwave and I tried to change myself by finishing using the bathroom before the timer ends. Anyway, Thanks for reading.

4:41 I won $4 and $10, but received $0.

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So, I've been completing surveys and tasks and stuff all day, little pay or pay that wouldn't arrive today. I knew that Cider Casino pays same day, so I gave it a go and worked my few cents of free coins up to like $4 something, I went to redeem but my account needed verification. I do verification and my application was rejected due to duplicate information. The prompt prompted me to sign into my existing account, so I did, or so I thought. I had $0.50 cents in that account and I played some numbers on Gravity Roulette. I chose a 6 among other numbers. And what you have it, I land a 100x multipler. So I turned $0.10 into $10. My 2nd youngest sister and I were very excited. However, same story, no luck with verification unfortunately. So that was pretty bad. But luckily, I did some more survey opportunities. Thanks for reading.

5:31pm I lost $110 won $1924.62

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After cashing out $151 on BabaCasino, I played with the remaining $27 on RealPrize and went up to like $40 by playing For the Realm Deluxe, but I tried to make a little more because I felt ripped off by the $19 win on the free spins round, the same round that used to give me like $700 last year. So then I cancled my $151 redemption on Baba Casino and I lost it down to $40 something. I felt desperate, so I increased my $0.30 spins in outsourced to $0.60. As my balance continued to decrease, I then thought to myself how much I felt like a failure. Then I got the three scatter symbols, I wasn't too optimistic because last scatter on the $0.30 spins gave me like $0.43 cents. But, I had a little hope since I've upped my bet. It was like a $0.40 cent bet with bonus enhancement so it was $0.60 per spin. I wanted at least to win the game boy, like $8 dollars. I was like talking to God, like, come on, stop stalling. Then, I won the Gameboy alright, and then some. To my pleseent surprise...

4:16pm I won $151

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I got like $25, $15 and another $15 in visa e-gift cards earlier today from the surveys I completed ages ago. I then put $29 into RealPrize for the $75 pack and I post horribly. Not to be deterred, I put $25 into BabaCasino for the $50 pack. I won up to $90 something then lost it down to like $40-$50, but the game Outsurced saved me which is funny because that game is usually pretty lame. Thanks for reading!

2:17am I lost $155.50

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Zula Casino had a pack for $9 for $20, I played that, then lost it thanks to For the Realm Deluxe. Also around that time my 2nd youngest sister and I were talking about the termite and air conditioning problem going on right now. She suggested that we get into gambling and win the lottery. I was like, yes we need a big win. Then I was like, maybe grandpa can pay for the termanix. So we continue talking and then my sister pointed out that my nipple was showing. I got embarrassed and quickly fixed my dress. Anyway, later I ran up a free dollar something on RealPrize up to like $13, but lost it. Later, later, I decided to play with my balance on Coins Royale. I wasn't able to redeem as yet due to verification taking up to 72 hours. I thought that I might as well try to make more money, especially since I was motivated by all the transphobic stuff about me I've seen on Facebook about me, I thought that making more money would make me feel better. In the end I lost it all and I feel...

9:46pm I won $145.50

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I won $145.50 on Coins Royale after I finally received my $75 e-gift card, then went to Swagbucks to complete the Coins Royale offer of depositing at least $30, I deposited about $38.98 to make sure I was covered. And I played a few games and stopped at around high $60s Then I brought groceries with my 2nd youngest sister and my big brother drove us. Then when we arrived back home I finished what I started and I played more games on CR, and then at my lowest SC count I scored a 108x on a live plinko game which just happened to have the sound muted due to reginal restrictions, but my name was on top of the leader board for the highest win of $108, so that was pretty great!   Thanks for reading!

2:17am I lost $5

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I lost $5 to hard rock bet after doing the kaishi trading offer on Swagbucks for $10 for $36 which releases in 10 days. I withdrew my $10 deposit at kaishi for $3.80 and that put my PayPal balance at like $6 something. I then put $5 into hard rock bet in a desperate attempt at turning it into $30 so I can complete another offer on Swagbucks which was for coins Royale which pays $80 for $30 deposited. Anyway, losing that $5 that sucked, especially since I worked so hard for it with those grueling surveys. Anyway, thanks for reading.

2:48pm I lost access to TikTok Live

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During an Hour and 13 minute live broadcast TikTok decided to end my live stream due to an age restriction at around 2:10pm. Basically, trolls were commenting a bunch of weird and offensive stuff in my comments about age and stuff, and I guess that caused TikTok to flag my channel for being under 18. Which is crazy because I've verified myself as being over 18 numerous times, it seems like this is just another tactic by TikTok to further de-monitize my channel. I went on live in an attempt to try and raise some gas money today, because TikTok already underpaid me for the month of June which was $0.11 cents vs. the $200-400+ a month I used to make on TikTok from my videos. Anyway, I feel like suing TikTok for wrongly punishing me and causing me to lose so much in potential income. I hate my life so much some times, times like these especially. At least I'm hot. Thanks for reading. 2:55pm. 2:56pm update. I forgot to mention that I was dancing and singing t...

2:37pm I lost $62

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I canceled my withdrawal on crowncoinscasino and did another withdrawal of $50. I played with the $12.07 and lost horribly. I then canceled the $50 and I won some free spin rounds on hacksaw games but they were so horrible in win amounts that it was insulting. Miami Mayhem was the final blow, I left that slot with only $0.63 left of my balance. Ugh, I feel so awful right now. Before losing I also did a Userinterviews survey where I gave the research team access to my health records for the next 5 years. The payout for that is only $50, that is if I'm approved for compensation. I feel so sick right now. But, I guess the silver lining is that I found out that my health insurance is paid for because it was paid automatically using my Florida Blue points, yay. Thanks for reading.

11:25am I won $62.07

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My OF money of $22 came in today, so that was pretty slay. I did my eye makeup in the bathroom of a rest stop at around late 8am. I went with my eldest sister to the rest stop. Later, later, I saw that crowncoinscasino had an offer of $20 for $9.99, so I thought why not, my Healthcare insurance bill is way overdue and my wifi bill is coming up, too. So yes, I buy the package and lose horribly, until eventually playing a witch cauldron game,  which gave me several 100x wins, too bad my spins were $0.10, though. But regardless, thanks to that game I was ae to eventually redeem $62.07. Thanks for reading!

11:25am I won $62.07

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My OF money of $22 came in today, so that was pretty slay. I did my eye makeup in the bathroom of a rest stop at around late 8am. I went with my eldest sister to the rest stop. Later, later, I saw that crowncoinscasino had an offer of $20 for $9.99, so I thought why not, my Healthcare insurance bill is way overdue and my wifi bill is coming up, too. So yes, I buy the package and lose horribly, until eventually playing a witch cauldron game,  which gave me several 100x wins, too bad my spins were $0.10, though. But regardless, thanks to that game I was ae to eventually redeem $62.07. Thanks for reading!

11:59pm Supercon Final Day x Eye damage

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So todau was the last day of Supercon. My brother and I dropped otf my younger siblings, then my brother and older siblings went to the beach. I left to look for a restroom and I saw a bunch of pride signs all around town, which was kind of cool. I eventually find a bathroom then reunite with my older siblings. After that, we picked up my younger siblings from the convention.   They had so much super fun! My 2nd eldest sister wanted to go to the Everglades forest to take photos of the night sky. We agreed, I took a nap on the drive there.  I woke up to a hoard of mosquitoes and a beyond itchy right eye. My left eye didn't feel right either and I ended up pulling a mosquito out of the corner of my left eye. My 2nd youngest sister noticed how swollen my right eye was, so I was like, I knew it was swollen. My eldest sister gave me two benadryl pills, I haven't had those in a while. I soon went to sleep and woke up like at mid 4am. Thanks for reading. ...