6:31pm depression

After receiving the $89 from bux777, I put $39.99 into bux777 and received $20 extra, the playthrough requirements were ridiculously high, like $200, I ended up losing.

I then put some of my money into HardRockBet and won some and lost some and lost some.

Also there was a six hour study that pays $120, so I took it, but my iPhone audio wasn't good enough for the study, so I had to leave.

I gambled some more on HardRockBet and won some more.

I eventually had like $100 something.

I put $50 into ZumbaCards after receiving an email about 20 free spins. Those free spins got me like $4 to play with, I lost it.

So yes, I put the $50 into Zumba for the $125 pack. I got up to $200 something, but the playthrough requirements in order to withdraw weren't budging much, so I played some more and quickly lost it all.

Also... I put like my last $50 into HardRockBet and got up to like $93 again, I thought to myself that'll stop at $80, but I didn't because I lost too much, then I lost it all.

So then I took out a $25 loan with Dave, plus about $6 in fees.

I put it into my PayPal, then put $29 into HardRockBet leaving me with $0.70 cents in my PayPal account.

I ended up getting up to like $50 something on HardRockBet, but then I lost it all down to $0.25 cents. I feel so numb.

Thanks for reading.

6:39pm.

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