6:22pm Tooth Troubles

While brushing my teeth I was thinking of s scenario where I time travel, transition earlier as a small child and a have my name change into Alana. 

I was also thinking about that one time last year or so when I was joking about all of my siblings having girl names except me, ironically. Then my Mom was like we can change it. 

(My Mommy previously suggested the name Alana to me because all her daughters names end eith A. I was flattered, but contempt with my name Alan, because it's my original name and sounds feminine.

Gosh my Mommy was awesome ♥︎ Love you and always thinking of you).


Which reminds me, my name and her name both end with N, I guess that means our bond will Never end.

Anyway, I was then thinking about a scenario where I ask my Daddy "Who's Alan, and why do I have his name?"

At that moment my tooth was ripped away from my gums while brushing my teeth. 

Thank Goddess it was my back tooth and isn't noticeable, although a missing front tooth would look pretty cute.

Anyway, I lost my tooth so I immediately cleaned it up for my collection, because keeping a piece of your skull is way too cool.

I thought about that hypothetical question again, who is Alan? Alan is she, and Alan is me. Aww, I'm going to make myself cry, lol.

You know, this was my last toothbrush and brushing my teeth before heading out was a last minute decision, but I think it was also a last minute tooth dislocation.

Anyway,

Thanks for reading!

Smiling selfie.
6:37pm

I don't usually show my teeth when taking photos because I think I don't look too good like that.

I was even upset as a child about how I can't smile. 

I went to my partners room and I told my Mommy and Daddy, "I can't smile" ):

My Mommy was like, you have a beautiful smile.

So that cheered me up.

While writing this there was a train, which my farther and sisters noticed. I love trains.

My 2nd youngest sis stated, "Alan, look it's a train".

I was like, "cool, thanks for showing me (:

Anyway, we're on the way to drop off my 2nd eldest sis, then my 2nd youngest sis and Daddy will go to Starbucks, which is pretty cool. I used to go to Starbucks a lot with my Mommy. I had a dream of her earlier, she and I were watching this gorgeous 3D animation that my eldest brother made and was presenting to us.

It was something beyond my skill level, so many characters and smooth animation.

I woke up realizing that it was a dream, and I was happy that it wasn't beyond my creativity, because it was MY DREAM, I made those animations technically since I dreamt the whole thing. So that was pretty cool.

Thanks again for reading.

6:45pm.

Update, I saw a pickup truck and the plate read ALAM. That's so awesome, that's definitely a sign that my name is mines and is beautiful ♥︎

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