5:48pm evil fin-tech

So I lost $125 at HardRockBet while in the bathroom, then another $50. I feel so crazy and so sad. I worked up my last $50 to $173 and now it's gone...

They drew me back in with a deposit bonus, but alas the free $18.50 on my $125 deposit wasn't worth it, because now like $200 dollars of mines is now gone.

But at least I put $100 into ZumbaCards earlier today and witdrew about $590 and wrote the following on FB:

"So I was already down like $1,600, but I finally got a decent 500x win today. I'll take $590 something, better than nothing.

I used the promo code I received from VIP, the code was SRY1, which was also a chromosome code, 

so I was hesitant in using it at first because I thought it was a personal jab at my genetic makeup, so I was a bit upset by that.

Like, oh so I lost my money and now they're mocking my chromosomes 🥲

I tend to think very literally and deeply.

But, I used the code anyway and got 100 bonus SC, and lost horribly down from $200 to $30, until I finally got a 500x bonus on the Iconic 21 fishing game. That was very much needed.

Thanks for reading!".


Anyway... I hope to hopefully get up to my surgery money goal.

If I can just get more control on not spending all my earnings and control my loss chasing, than I'll reach my $15K goal in no time.

You know, last night I was playing a game and I saw a grand of $20K displayed, and I thought "That's my surgery money".

I didn't end up winning, obviously and sadly.

I knew I shouldn't have cancled my redemptions last night, but after I lost that first $50, I had to keep going, I had to win it back.

And when I wss playing Winbonanza on my phone, a voice told me to play on my laptop instead, so I did. I un-blocked it from my server and began playing and losing and losing and losing ):

Anywayz, thanks for reading.



5:55pm

5:58pm

P.S, my brother got his license back earlier today, so that's pretty cool. He's bring my 2nd eldest and 2nd youngest sis and I, right now.

So cool ♡
5:59pm

6:00pm


Update:

6:29pm

I lost my last $7 on Vemno to HardRockBet.

Gosh, I was so ahead, now I'm so down.

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