2:18am sadness

I feel so, so sad.

On Chumba, I did end up canceling my redemption of like $360 and then made like $707. I received the deposit earlier after waiting a long time. 

I end up losing almost all to LoneStarCasino, Winbonanza and Fortunecoins.

I just have like $50 left which I redeemed from Yay casino after a $50 for $100 deal.

I feel so blue.

I even told my therapist earlier today about my losses and stuff and how I've been trying to ban myself from the casinos and how I usually lose a lot when sleep deprived.

It's like 2:22am now, my sleep deprivation always ruins my bank balance.

I still have to wake up in a few hours for customer service training, gosh.

At least my thighs are slaying.

Thanks for reading.

Update: 2:53am

I used $49.99 from my $52 something left on my card for RealPrize casino. I made it up to like $80 something, but then lost it.

I feel beyond depressed right now.

I used the last $2 dollars on my card to order a mug at Walmart.

The voices in my head are intensifying, so I'm going to get some bed.

Thx 4 reading.

2:55am.