1:35pm I lost hundreds

It began some days ago, I won a lot of money, probably $800+ after playing with my survey money and stuff.

A few days ago I put like $170 into Spree casino, I lose it, but manage to make like an extra hundred on Winbonanza, so that made my loss just like $70.

Then I received my $50.21 deposit from Yay Casino. I lose it on Megabonanza, so that made my loss like $120.

I cancel my $160 redemption on Spindoo to try and make the money back, I lose it down to $70.

I cancel my $300.21 redemption on RealPrize, I lose.

At 4 something am, I then play with my balance on Spindoo, make it up to $207.

I'm not satisfied, I cancel the $207 redemption, I lose $7. Redeem again at $200.

Then after my nap, I wake up around 10am,

I cancel the redemption to try and make more money, I almost lose it all, but managed to make it all back to at least $170-$196 a few times.

But then, I tried to make it back to at least $200-$500 and beyond, but I quickly lose it all.

I've turned my $207 into $0.07 cents, thank you Playson, Bgaming and Penguin King ):

The game Arizona Heist by Playson run my last $20 something on Spindoo down to $0.07 cents.

I feel so, so depressed now. I was ahead, but now I'm behind again.

My major loss chaes, they always begin with Spree Casino.

I so wanted to buy tickets for everyone for the convention next week, now I can't. I feel so depressed.

Please call 988 if you feel similar.

This is so irritating, I even spoke with my therapist two days ago about how dangerous gambling is and how it's affected me.

It's 1:56pm right now and I haven't even eaten anything yet since I got up. I've only drank 8-oz of milk coffee and some bottled water.

At the very least, I was able to redeem $12 at Crowncoinscasino a few moments ago.

And I did get like a $10 Starbucks gift card from CardCrush the other day.

Update: 2:46pm. I lost the $10 Starbucks gift card on card crush, just now. I canceled the redemption, worked the $10.26 up to like $30, then lost it all. 

And it's like 2:47pm right now and I still haven't eaten anything.

Anyway,

Thanks for reading.

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