Purple Pantyhose x Lots of dreams

My new black dress and purple pantyhose look super cute!

Also, I had a bunch of dreams earlier today;
A lady drowning underwater and going unconscious so she stabbed her throat to re-energize herself and attempt to pull her boyfriend up as well.

Parents surprising their trans daughter with a spool of aqua blue thread and the mom letting her know that now she can make what ever she wants.

(I thought that dream with the seamstress trans daughter was so touching and it reminded me of how my Mommy brought me 3DS Max some months ago so that way I can make things).

Also in my dreams, a glow-in-the-dark light show at a church.

My Daddy listening to the song "I think I'm falling for you, I've been waiting all my life and now I've found you, I think I'm falling for you".

(That's the song that got stuck in my head at the mental hospital last year, I love it!).

Also, in my dream, I was at the kitchen and I said to myself something like, "I'm interested in men".

My Mom then told me that I shouldn't be ashamed of that.

I told her, no I was just talking to myself.

She mentioned that I was talking aloud so I must of felt something.

Ultimately, she didn't want me to feel ashamed.

I woke up. I thought that if I fall asleep and still remember what Mommy told me when I wake up, then it was the real Mommy.

I fell asleep many more times, many more dreams and yet I still remembered that Mommy didn't want me to feel ashamed, and that to me was so beautiful.

My continued dreams were me seeing a spider which I later saw in real life.

A guy turning into a muppet in a greyscsle video. Then a lady at the table in a similar video demanding answers. It doesn't show her turn into a Muppet though.

Also in another dream,

My cousin roasting me for not accomplishing things, and also he made an AI video of him and me. He was a tall guy in a suit and I was a classy lady.

So so so many dreams because I slept for so many hours because I kept going to bed because I was so so depressed.

Thanks for reading.

Gosh, it's 12:03am now, it's now May 31st, the last day of May I guess.

Also, the trans lady in my dream, she had a french-like cap hat, long hair, fair skin, her theme was aqua blue. Her parents were so supportive of her, which warmed my heart.

I haven't had a dream of a transwoman in a minute, so it was good to have another one.

I take that back, I did have a transwoman dream a day before the last one. It was of a Trans woman Walmart worker who now works at BestBuy, she was showing me her wig collection.

It's 12:08 now. Now 12:11am.

I brought toilet paper and a lollipop at the gas station store with my 2nd eldest sister accompanying me.

Anyway, it's so sad that I was only able to afford one roll of toilet paper and one lollipop, I hate poverty, lol. Unemployment just adds to my unhappiness. I tried to end things so many times before, but my family keeps stopping me, their love for me is some powerful stuff, truly.

Anyway, please call 988 if you feel misery.

Thanks for reading truly!

12:14am.

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