I won and lost like $50 x depressing stories.

Today I was bed rotting in my gaming chair because I was so depressed about allnthe money I've lost and how I've ruined my plans for going to the convention and buying tickets for everyone.

I also had a dream that my 3 Pokémon had mutated and developed cancer after they evolved, one had like 745% cancer.

One was to reduce the chance of cancer development was to use a rose 🌹 I found a rose in a long black at some small shop.

Also, my mom's friends did my clothes in my dream, so that was nice of them.

I eventually stopped bed rotting and got to working.

I setup my colorbox hair dye machine and dyed my hair aquamarine.

Later, I went on TikTok live and got some complaints on how feminine my face looked, so that was pretty awesome.

Later after my shower and rinsing out the hair dye, I played Royal Rumble on Pulz casino which I scored pretty high on the leader board and scored $25 SC for free, to be credited within 24 hours.

Later, I did a research study which paid $75, but not immediately.

Later, I noticed that my tokens on Pulz have been successfully credited.

Later, later, I play Gravity roulette on my phone while in the car.

I turn my $25 into $50 something.

Fueled by guilt over not being able to pay for the rest of the tickets and knowing it's all my fault, I bet high amounts on the roulette.

I win and lose, and lose, until $0 in my balance.

It's so weird that I can't get to at least $100 when it matters most. I hate myself so, so much. I was so ahead, but now I'm so behind.

I planed weeks for this event and worked weeks for this event, and now I've ruined it.

Thanks for reading.