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I lost $80 dollars, again.

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I won $17 on the Book of Riches Deluxe SE game on SpinBlitz, I tried to make more money, but then I lost it all. Then I won my way up to $63 on SpinPals, but I had to make it up to $100 to cash out, and I just brutally lost it all. What's weird was the sucky free plays on the Hacksaw games. I even won 4x Free spin symbols on that Jaws of Justice game only to win just $10 dollars on a $0.4 cent bet.  One time on Fortune Coins I won like $150-$170 on the same amount of bet with just 3x Free spin symbols. Hacksaw gaming is definitely just the worst. And that stupid le cowboy game, it drained my balance by like $20+ so many deadspins and it just went downhill from there. This was all off of free play, by the way. SpinBlitz I had $3.08 free to start with, and SpinPals, I had $1.1 to start with. Crazy how you can make so much off of so little, but lose it all when you try to make just a little bit more when you have a lot. Anyway, F my life as always. Thanks for reading.

I spoke with my Therapist

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I spoke with my Therapist via zoom while in the stairwell, it was pretty fun! We discussed psychiatrist letters, art work and x work and underground stuff and OnlyFaning, customers scamming me, gambling and how it got me mental hospitaling, topics that are depressing and game engineering, it was so cool! Thanks for reading! Also, it was a little funny, my 2nd eldest sis came to see that I was in the stairwell, I guess she was looking for me or coincidentally found me here, she was wondering who I was talking to, she thought I was doing a TikTok, so I was like, oh, I'm speaking to my therapist, she was like, oh ok. I was like, thanks for looking for me. My therapist was like, aw, your family is worried about you, hopefully you and your family can find the help they need, I was like, thanks. Anyway, it was a great session, my therapist suggested that my brother can be my pimp given my situation, but she also suggested chaturbate and stuff, (since I'm alrea...

Dress Sew

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Earlier today my mom sewed my black V neck bodycon long sleeve Forever 21 Dress for me, that was so nice of her! There was a hole in the left armpit of the sleeve, so she fixed it. I then thanked her for sewing it for me ♡  Thanks for reading!

Beauty Cut

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I accidentally cut below my right eyelid while showering, I hadn't showered for like 2 days. Anywayz, I was thinking about my financial troubles and other random stuff, then I was thinking of Helluza Boss song when I see him, while I was thinking of having to remove as much makeup under my eyes as possible,  then I scratched under my eye, I guess I forgot that there were small delicate bumps under there. The acne was probably caused by the hair dye, you see. Anyway, when I applied the towel, I saw blue from my hair dye and red from my cut injury, ouch. Thanks for reading. Also, I had a dream when a Walmart boss girl was like, attention, we're hiring all Alans for the Sam's Club and Walmart cart pushing position. I knew that I was getting my job back, but also that it would be painful for my back. Thanks for reading!

I made a Land Ammonite

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I was depressed, so I made a Land Ammonite to to help de-stress. Gosh, it has been a bad day, but she makes it worth it. Thanks for reading!

7:37pm - 7:47pm losses and drama.

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I lost another $5 [$4.99] on Hellomillions, just now. That was the last of my $5 on my $30 tremendous card, it's all gone now and I feel so pathetic. I lost it all on one game, the stupid UFO game. After the loss, at aroud 7:39pm, my mom and bro were talking about black plastic bags to buy at Walmart. My bro was like we don't have the enough, the bags are $...  Then I yelled "STOP!!!". Then I apologized repeatedly, and I explained that I was just under a lot of stress and that money is the cause of trauma. You know, that kind of drama. My mom then spoke to me and my bro about my dad and his financial abuse, ect... Thanks for reading.

I brought hershyz

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I brought Hershey after the loss of my frozen 3 musketeers bar and money. All the other three musketeers were pretty old and dusty with 7-2024 and 12-2025 ex dates. I brought these Hersheyz with a 1-2027 date. I ate these pills in the car and the purchase. Tissues stuck to the pain killer. Thx for reading.