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My milkt coffee looks like an Ammonite. I noticed that after paying my phone bill. Tonight I finally received a $57 gift card from a grocery survey I did in early April, so I used it to pay my phone bill. I also brought milk, curry powder and chips using $10 I found while looking in my emails for the GC I used just now. The $57 GC wasn't there earlier but I did find the $10 dollars. Also, my big bro gave me change to buy coffee sticks. Also, my 2nd youngest sis let me know about the $1 chips, that was awesome because I was thinking of buying some cheap chips.  Thanks for reading!

I tied my shoes, it's been a while without their laces removed ever since my last mental hospital stay in mid April after I losing Mommy. I must say, things are still hard for me, I've been staying up late nights and I've slept in a fetal position on my gaming chair for like 10 hours. I also had a dream that my 2nd youngest sis and I went to the mental hospital with my 2nd eldest sis. I was afraid of going on the scale, but was ordered to, and I ended up weighing 109 pounds, I was relieved that it wasn't 122 pounds or something like that. I also was anxious about the food there. Dang, even in my dream I'm anorexic. Anyway, tying my shoes was pretty fun, it gave me something to do other than streaming in my mind about how messed up my life is. I also cut my nails the day before. Also, yesterday I took a look at the new eyeliner I received maybe on May 1st. Thanks for reading!

So I ordered a new dress for my bday after comparing a whole bunch for dresses for a very long time. After like a million hours of decision making I finally said yes to the dress! (I also got a bikini area shaver the day before so I can have a nice bikini line when wearing my new bodysuit/leotard. I can't wait to wear it ♡ it's purple and shiny and so femme!!!) ( Interesting, I used three exclamation points, which reminds me about what my mom told me years ago, "You'll know that a writer is a girl if there's rheee exclamation points used. (: Also, I still haven't slept so my Auditory Hallucinations are crazy, two recently said "Hey! I thought you said you like fish" and "Hey you! (Yeah you, get out of down). The ger out of down part though I think I just thought of it, but still kinda heard it. Anyway, my birthday is in 3 days, I'm feeling excited and saddened. I'm excited to turn 26, kinda. And I'm saddened that this is my first birt...

This was what my therapist that I saw in Jacksonville would call a manic episode. So I spent basically most my momey. I brought a $13 coin pack with a $15 value on Chumba. I manged to work that $15 dollars up to $30 something but sadly lost it all.  -Also, I heard my Auditory Hallucination say "So"., while I was writing this segment, lol, mind your business, mind. I also brought a $4.99 pack with an $8 value on Yay Casino. I lost that too, down to like $0.27 cents. Desperate, I canceled my $501.25 redemption and played it in slots hoping to make up for the $18 dollars I wasted in losses at the other two Casinos. My $500 lost tremendous value, well maybe $20-$40, then I almost doubled my balance >> (I heard another Hallucination "20% cash back on new French fries.) >>  I turned $50 into $100, then $200, $300, $500, then I my $500 into $855, I'm very tired now, I stood up all night through the morning, it's 8:07 am now. But, it was worth it, I got some ...

I won $501.25 on Yay Casino tonight. After receiving the $226 in my bank, I spent $49 on my health insurance, $14.75 on DoorDash, $12.21 at Publix, $50 on Yay Casino for their $100 pack, $29 on RealPrize for their $75 pack and $24.99 on Baba Casino for their $50 pack. I lost all my money on those Casinos except for Yay Casino, I managed to withdraw about $260, then I played with it down to $50 something later on after doing my 2nd research interview for the day. I felt like throwing up after my $260+ went down to like $50 something, but I kept going and I eventually worked my amount up to $260 again, then $280, $290, $309, and finally $501.25. The thought of me being able to afford my boobs operation and paying for the storage units kept me motivated. I'm glad I persisted. Thanks for reading.

Finally May, yay!