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9:53pm I won and lost $80

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I had $10 from a study I completed so I deposited that into Winbonanza in hopes of getting back to the hundreds of dollars that I once had. I brought like the $11.25 pack for $9.99. I ran it up in For the Real to $80 something, then after that sharp decline and endless deadspins and horrible free spins with just 2x wins. Anyway, I feel a lot of pain right now, especially since my Farther called tonight and tried to convince us to cancel the trip to Miami since we didn't have the money. I feel so beyond guilty right now, I tried one last attempt at making hundreds, but failed. My gosh.  Thanks for reading.

I won and lost like $50 x depressing stories.

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Today I was bed rotting in my gaming chair because I was so depressed about allnthe money I've lost and how I've ruined my plans for going to the convention and buying tickets for everyone. I also had a dream that my 3 Pokémon had mutated and developed cancer after they evolved, one had like 745% cancer. One was to reduce the chance of cancer development was to use a rose 🌹 I found a rose in a long black at some small shop. Also, my mom's friends did my clothes in my dream, so that was nice of them. I eventually stopped bed rotting and got to working. I setup my colorbox hair dye machine and dyed my hair aquamarine. Later, I went on TikTok live and got some complaints on how feminine my face looked, so that was pretty awesome. Later after my shower and rinsing out the hair dye, I played Royal Rumble on Pulz casino which I scored pretty high on the leader board and scored $25 SC for free, to be credited within 24 hours. Later, I did a research study which paid $75, but not ...

9:53pm I lost $69.99 x I'm at a low point.

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I feel so depressed right now. Earlier today I bet $0.50 on 6 on gravity roulette using the free daily dollar you get on SpinQuest, with that I worked my balance up to like $36 dollars using various games and roulette. I eventually lost it all. I still had $73 left from my $103 deposit that came in from Pulz today. Megabonanza had a deal for $91 for $69.99. I saw that Megabonanza had live games, so I went ahead and brought the package. I didn't know that gravity roulette wasn't available though, just regular roulette, so it didn't have the multipliers and stuff. I also played some games I wasn't quite used to such as sic bo and jack black. The sic bo I was a bit more accustomed to so I won more on that. The slots were brutal, endless dead spins. I finished off my session with roulette, trying to win back all the money I've lost yesterday, because let's face it, gambling is like one of my main sources of income at this point. Nothing else in my life has come clos...

Staples Job interview

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The staples job interview went pretty well. I love how they printed out abd stapled my resume in color, as well. The interviewer guy and I had a great conversation and we shook hands in the end. It was great! My brother and I went to bestbuy next.  I was looking for a storage drive so I can sell my phone after backing up the files, however I wasn't in love with the prices. The goal is to sell my phone then buy tickets for supercon and stuff. I also used hair gel in my hair to look fabulous for my job interview. I was considering wearing guy's 32x32 pants for my job interview, but then I ultimately went with black leggings because I was feeling confident in my femininity. Thanks for reading!

7:08pm I lost $309.20

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I lost my entire $309.20 withdrawal from Chumba, I feel so numb. Nothing makes sense anymore. My loss chasing is insane, all of this over losing $38 ): I canceled my chumba withdrawal and redeemed like $285 Then played with that amount in gravity roulette, lost it. Tried again, and made like $90 something, I could of cashed that out and had like $340 something to redeem, but I tried to make more for all the upcoming expenses. I lost the $90 something. I cancled my $250 withdrawal and went on a downward spiral of losing. My lowest point was the low $150s-$120s, the place of no return. Just straight losses after that. Now I just have a clean $0.00 balance on Chumba casino. I'm so sick with myself right now. All I wanted to do was make more money to get tickets and merch for the upcoming supercon convention, but I ruined it all and now my phone service will deactivate on top of that. I hate gambling when sleep deprived, I'm just so zombie like and mindless. I hate this!!! ...

2:13pm I lost $11.20

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I canceled my gift card deposit for pulz and I then played gravity roulette turning my $11.20 into $29 something, but after that it was a sharp decline. Thanks for reading.

1:40pm I lost $38

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I sign into hard rock bet on my laptop to see a dollar bonus, I turn that into $11. I nodded to make a deposit to cash out with PayPal, so I did. I made a 5 dollar deposit and turn the $16 into $10, still a $5 dollar profit. I needed to pay my phone bill today for $30, so I thought I might as well try to double my momey. I gathered all my money, like $38 together and I deposited it into Hard Rock Bet and I immediately knew that I made a mistake. I proceeded to lose at all the playtech games, the bonuses were super bad. You know, I should have listened to that lighting strike I noticed when I got my first $10 withdrawal today from Hard rock bet. I thought something like, "they make me win once to lure me in". Then lighting struck. Anyway, this sux. Thanks for reading.