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Job Rejectionz

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I Got this Safelite job rejection email ri ght after uploading  a video of my Burlington job rejection. I really was hoping to get this  job. I'm in hell. Video description of aforementioned video? Speech Impediment, they say, but at least I can still clearly express myself in another way.  Trans Girl 👧🏽 Talks about her endless Failures.  Why I'm I even still trying at this point? What's the end goal if the there is no end?  The pursuit of making money has lead me to madness and sadness. Ironically, the only thing real now to me seems to be virtually reality, e.g digital photography, music and videography.  You know you're disconnected from the real world when a day without a screen feels like an eternity.  Maybe, I'm my own enemy, no that's what they want me to believe. Money, the one thing I've spent my life chasing is the enemy, the very word gives me PTSD.  How can something so essential in this country also lead to m...

Spoiled Milk

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The Kirkland Costco milk ended up being spoiled. I made hot chocolate and took a sip and now I feel extremely nauseous. I had to discard all the milk. The milk also smelt awful. Thanks for reading, I feel so sick, ugh. Also, I lost $3.44 on that bad milk, and several hours because I ordered it at like 12pm then waited till almost 6pm to receive it. I put on the note that I wanted EXP dates of May/June and beyond, however I got April 12th instead which is actually the anniversary of when I was released from the Mental Hospital last year. That was my 2nd trip to the mental hospital. My 3rd trip was March 9th or so. April 12th 2025 was also supposed to be the day I went to the GameStop job fair, but I guess that didn't happen due to mental hospital. By the time I was discharged it was too late to arrange myself for the event unfortunately. It took til like June for the 2nd job fair, I didn't get the job but I was invited for October. October came and the job wasn't available. ...

Macy's Interview

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The Macy's E-Interview went pretty well this afternoon, I hope.  This is my 2nd time applying and interviewing to Macy's, so fingers crossed on this one. I just needed my microphone for this interview, so no camera needed apparently, it's a shame, I had my Webcam and Ringlight all setup, lol. But, I think I did well. I could have spent th whole day angry and sad about my previous job rejections, but instead I kept moving foward, because that's what you do in a way, soldier. Also, I brought from Costco for the first time today to get a gallon of milk, yay! I choose the one of the slowest shipping options on Uber Eats to get heavy discounts, so that way in the end the delivery cost was only about .10-20 cents. I'm such a financial genius sometimes when I'm not a financial failure, lol. Thanks for reading!

I didn't get the Job at Burlington I feel Depression.

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I didn't get the Job at Burlington I feel Depression. Then after the job rejection email I got an email from One Pay reminding me about my overdue balance. I don't even care at this point, forget that stuff. I feel so depressed that I'm actually some twisted type of happy right now, because the depression has actually energized and inspired me, I feek like I can do whatever I want because this life is already ruined, lol. Thanks for reading. Thanks for reading.

Black Dot

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A black appears flickering on the left side of my S24 FE, so super annoying! I just noticed this while watching my 6 month puzzy surgery update video on IG, so around 4:20 something PM. Anyway, it's a little funny because I thought about taking about the ups and downs of content creation, like the upside getting a free phone, like my Samsung S24 FE for free, and the downs being that I'm still depressed. But yeah, it's ironic that my phone screen is deciding to D13 in the worst way right now. FE 24, you would be missed. It's a shame, I just got her last year, like in March of 2025, almost to the day, weird. Thanks for reading!

I lost $24.99

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I simply tried to turn my $24.99 into $50 because like $26 was all I had left after spending so much yesterday on my family and stuff. I did a heck lot of surveys and stuff, waited 8 days for it to arrive and stuff, then that was all basically spent yesterday on food and stuff, and yet we're still in a desperate situation and my fam had to go to the soup kitchen today, so I'm trying to save us by trying to multiple what I have left in my account. The deal on Baba Casino was $24.99 for $50, it was a no-brainer, it seemed, so I brought it after so much internal struggle with myself whether to buy it or not, but regardless I brought it to at least get a gift card or something, and it was going good at first, I needed to play through $50 to cash out. So far I played through $8 something and had around $50 something so things were looking good until I've fallen into a trap of endless deadspins and ended up at a balance of $0.06 cents, which really sux because I was already feeli...

Safelite interview

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The safelite interview was awesome!  The interviewer lady had a Blue hair Vegeta painting in the background so I complimented her on that and we talked about anime and my work history and the job requirements and anime again, I loved it! Thanks for reading! I did get bit a few times by mosquitos, but that's okay, the interview went smoothly.