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7:01pm

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So today I worked like 7+ hours at my job, because I need the money. Earlier today my 2nd youngest sister asked about asking Daddy for like $10 because we needed juice and rice. So I'm like, ok. So I texted Daddy about it, and he sent $60, so I thanked him. Although, I was saddened that it landed in the account which had a negative balance of like $79 from the automotiv Grant App loan repayment, so my account ended up being like -$18. Still not a positive balance for groceries. I didn't let my Daddy know about that because I felt so guilty. Gambling debt has ruined me this week. I should have just cut my bloody losses. I ended up $2,500+ in the right direction a few weeks ago, but then I began losing at these casinos so badly that I'm now like -$500+ in the red. Gosh, I hate this I hate this I hate this!!!! I've been trying to fix my money issues with these dang online methods, such as crypto trading, gambling and stock trading, yet I'm just right where ...

11:29pm

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I feel beyond sad right now. I just took out another $20 loan, make that $22.99 if you add the expenses fee. Anyway, I lost $15 of it at Spree and $5 at Winbonanza. This loss streak could have been avoided if I just didn't lose $300 of my $2,200 winnings a few weeks ago. All this wouldn't be happening right now. I hate my life. Thanks for reading.

8:44pm

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I took out another $50 loan earlier today and I brought some groceries and stuff. I used $24.99 ($25.71 after tax) of it for Rolla Casino for a $50 Pack. I worked it up to like $60 something before losing it all down to like $0.08 cents, I feel so defeated, thank you Hacksaw Gaming for stealing my hope. Although, it was fun shopping at Publix and stuff, so it was still a good day despite my losing streak and poverty. Anyway, Thanks for reading!

11:47am

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My $34 Dollar payment from OF came in earlier today, I've been waiting a while for it to arrive. Also, I had found out that my WellsFargo account was in Negative -$79 because of Grant automatic loan repayment. I also had my laptop Zip installment payment not go through. All this financial pressure, boiling over, this made me feel the need to gamble to make it back because Negative bank account balances can cost me greatly. I then took out a new $50 loan with Grant to try and at least double it to pay off the previous loan Negative balance. I went to Modo casino and I put in $45 for a $50 coin pack. I hit a 50x on number 6 on the gravity roulette, so I was up at like $88 on my Modo casino balance. I eventually played slots which quickly drained my balance. I then brought another coin pack, which was $30. This subtracted like $30 from my $34 OF payment which I worked weeks for, my vag still hurts, especially since I made a new video earlier today for PH and OF. Anyway, I lost the $30...

10:49am Distress

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I woke up at 6 something am to complete a live survey that was a little over 75 minutes long. It was fun and it was about artwork. I received a $30 incentive. I wanted it to grow to at least $50, so I went to Baba Casino which had a $50 for $24.99 deal. I played with the $50 and lost it badly, but I eventually got up to like $80 something, but I had to get up to $100 to redeem cash. I went down to $70, $60, $50, $20s and back up to $50s then back down to $20s, $10s and eventually $0.04 cents. I blame the fact that a lot of the good slots are unavailable now due to new regional restrictions, so I was left with really bad slot providers such as Booming Games, Spinomenal and Runy Play, which left me with a balance of like $0. This has definitely upset me, now I only have a balance of $5.01 out of my $30 gift card. I'm so stressed right now, I wanted to start the day off strong, now it's falling apart, and I need to go and start work at 1pm on top of all that. It's just three h...

8:31pm Political Survey

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I did a transphobic political call survey that lasted like over half an hour, no compensation, but I went through it anwayway because I was already so invested into it. The caller on the phone was asking me how I feel about immigrant Healthcare and  Transgender Healthcare and Surgeries and transgender rights and biological 'men' in women's sports. My reaction was like, if the US has the resources to help us, then why not benefit our fellow humans? My reaction to the secondary transgender demonization was like, these questions are pretty offensive to me, this is what I fight for. The survey was conducted by Dynata, my own flesh and blood, because I used to work for them, so it felt like a betrayal because why would they make such a transphobic survey. Towards the end, the caller thanked me for my time, and I thanked her as well. I did mention how the Transgender subjects were upsetting to me. She apologized and let me know that she had to read them because it was the script....

5:18pm sadness

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I went shopping with my 2nd youngest sister and eldest brother today. In the car I played Crown Coins Casino and had free $6 of coins, with that I eventually earned up to $50, $70 and beyond. We arrived back home and my youngest sibling played the WNBA award ceremony for us, that was pretty cool, the medals were pretty. Anyway, I'm still playing the live American roulette game on Crown Coins Crashino, I've had about over an hour invested into it. I make it up to $123, and I'm pretty stoked about that. We had to head out again, this time Sam's Club, so I went and used the restroom real quick. I put my phone on the wall of the bathtub and pull down my pantyhose and underwear to use the toilet. While on the toilet I place some bets that didn't work out too good. I was eventually down to like $70-$90. I tried to bet on number 6, but the timer ran out, and of course, number 6 won. I was down very low by the time I got out of the bathroom. Outside while headin...