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3:45pm App Trap

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So I downloaded an App that I've been seeing ads for called Dable, so I created an account and within minutes I closed my account because I was bored as heck and there were no free bonus rewards for signing up. That was fast, it probably went from install to closed account within 5 minutes. The fun part of this app was creating my profile image and bio. Anyway, thanks for reading!

10:21pm sadness

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I stayed up extra late to do some surveys, I got accepted and rejected by so many of them. The one that was giving me problems from earlier finally worked out tonight and I was rewarded about $45 after about an hour of talking to an AI about my collecting experiences. I wanted to double my money so I made a $34.99 deposit into DexyPlay for a $70 pack. This casino was absolutely awful, dead spins galore and when I tried to play the live roulette before trying the slots out, it wouldn't let me play with my deposit bonus, real shady. I eventually lost the $70 because the slots drained me. I then took my last $9.99 and put it into King Prize casino for the $20 pack. I lost that too. It's like they turned off the returns on these casinos. Why is the RTP so bad? I hate, hate, hate, this! I'm so mad at myself, I wasted so much time earning that money, hours! And now it's gone within minutes, I hate those Casinos! I even watched a documentary on gambling addiction while taking ...

5:52pm losses

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I had won $4.09 off of free play on one of those iPhone casino apps I found through Freecash. There was a $0.50 fee, so $3.59 was deposited into my account. Then some moments ago I deposited the $3 into my account for the $4 pack on iPhone another casino app I've found through Freecash. I go into kitchen to check on my younger siblings. My youngest one is like, "Alan are you gambling again?" As she notices the slot on my iPhone. I'm like [: She's like, you know, someone was like I gambled my kid's college fund and doubled it. She was like, it's cool that they won, it was pretty risky, now the kid has double the college money. I was like, that's the goal... Anyway, I think the trick to winning at these games are just smaller bets and over time it adds up. I ended up losing the $3 deposit, but I did get the $0.29 cents on Freecash for meeting the play requirements of doing 10 spins. Gosh, these casinos are a living hell. I work so hard for th...

1:37pm

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I got like $2.40 in free play at Megabonanza so I played roulette and brought it up to $18 something after number 6 hit. I gradually lost it all ): Also, earlier today LoneStarCasino gave me free $0.20 spins instead of the $50 I asked for. I won $10 something, got it up to like $22, but then I lost it all. This is insane, these casinos are so bad right now. Luckily earlier today when working the phones I was invited to more training and a pay increase of $1 dollar towards the end, so I accepted the invite. There's a slight confliction though because I have a tele-health appointment on day two of training, so I'll probably advise my supervisor about that. Also, I was invited to a photoshoot opportunity by some XR photographer, so I replied with my excitement! Also earlier today, I was invited to a survey that pays $45, I tried multiple times to complete it but it seemed too broken to proceed advanced question 2. Anyway, thanks for reading!

9:03pm Deactivation

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I saw that Kalshi had a $25 dollar bonus deposit opportunity, but then I saw that the crypto deposit option allowed for up to $2M. Why would someone need to deposit up to $2 Million dollars for sports betting? It seemed like a very bad and shady business to me with some insider trader stuff behind the scenes, so I ditched any thought of a $25 dollar bonus and deactivated my account while saying the word "D1E!". Anyway, I got my $35 Swagbucks from completing the new account offer a few months back. I have no need for Kalshi now, that app seems way too shady, ew. Thanks for reading!

7:28pm

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I used $4.19 in free play at Crowncoinscasino to eventually make it up to $37+, but I lost it all down to $0.19. I was only $13 away from being able to make a redemption, this is so depressing.

Feelings

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I've lived as a boy and hid my trans identity to make others happy, but that fell apart shortly by the time I was 12, I decided to accidentally get seen wearing girl clothes. That way I could tell my family non-verbally. (I also put a dress 👗 on when I was three, but my Daddy told me that the dress looked square on me! 😭) (And similar also happened when I was 12, 13, 14, 15>>, my Daddy & 2nd eldest sis have discouraged me from wearing girl clothes... Huh, maybe they were jealous because I looked too pretty.) Anyway, non-verbal storytelling and communication is a pretty useful tool for me. Because saying, "You know what? I'm Trans!" would be a bit cringe for me... Funny, I've never really seriously used that word in real life to describe myself.  Because, I'm just a Girl!!! Whenever I say Trans Girl, I get the bad comments and accusations and hate. I'd love to just skip all that drama and just be a successful pretty rich girl ♡ I...