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6:21pm E-Shopping

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I ordered doordash because I won like $17 in DoorDash credits yesterday or so, so I used it today to order McDonald's to cheer me up from my severe depression, but alas the coffee was an iced mocha coffee instead of a mocha frap coffee like I envisioned, and it tasted very bitter and gross so I had to spit it out into the straw, it was like using a straw in reverse. Also, I ordered pads for my 2nd eldest sister, she was happy to see them and she thanked me, I think. Also, she reviewed the package and she said it was too thin, so I apologized and let her know that it can be used in the meantime; it's only temporary. She then thanked me via text. My sis was then picked up by our Daddy. I then received a text from my sis asking if we're going to the store, so then I let her know that I can ship her tampons. I soon ordered the tampons she sent me a text about earlier and I also ordered thicker pads, I hope they're thicker. Also... I ordered some chocolate candy. That's ...
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3:49pm I feel hopeless

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I put $10 more dollars into HardRockBet and lost it all down to $0.07. This leaves my PayPal account at like $25 dollars. I feel so beyond depressed right now, I was ahead, but now I'm not. I hate myself so deeply for this. The serious loss chasing began like this today, I was watching a video of this boy who worked at Nintendo but got scammed by this girl and he lost his job so he played poker to try and win back some money, turn $300 into $1,000, but he ended up losing. At the same time I was playing plinko with play coins in play mode to level up my vip status with GC coins. At Winbonanza you can level up to VIP, and I noticed that my status decreased, so I played with a lot of gold play coins to level up. I went through like half a billion play coins and so far I'm like 4 million vip points still from my goal. Once that goal is reached, I'd earn $500 dollars. I lost all my fake money coins, but I knew that I can level up fast if I used real money coins, so I decided to ...
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3:32pm Depression Level 10

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I put $5.99 into Pulz casino for their $10 pack and I got up to $44, then $41 on slots, but then I lost it all to Gravity Roulette. I want to d...... Never mind, I'll keep trying to succeed in life. Please call 988 if you feel depressed like I do. Thanks for reading.
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2:54pm More Pain

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I'm in such anguish. I took out another loan, this time from Bright and I just auto paid them like $55 earlier today. I took out $25 which was $27.90 something with express and there's also a $8 something subscription fee. I brought the $20 something pack at Chumba Casino which offered an additional $3 dollars. I ended up losing it all. Gosh! I hate this! God hates me, the casinos hate me, the world hates me, they all hate me, don't they? Thanks for reading.
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2:32pm deep hurt

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I put in $20 more into HardRockBet and I lost it within seconds. I like only have $20 left now. I was up by hundreds earlier today. I wish I never started loss chasing, I'll be on a good track to success right now. I blame being tired, I woke up way, way too early, in fact I was still tired when I woke up. I HATE MYSELF SO BLOODY MUCH!!!!!!!! Thanks for reading.
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Soul crushing Anguish 2:29pm

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I took out a $50 cash app loan after just paying it off earlier and the pay back rate is $53+. I put the $50 into HardRockBet and I made $144, but then I lost it all down to $0.47 cents, that k1lled me inside. Thanks for reading.
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1:54pm Pure Anguish

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I finally received my $1,001 deposit today, Internet bill took $45, Bright App took $55, I  used $700 for gambling and scored some profit, like $300 - $400 worth, but lost the profit down to $150, then I lost more profit then I lost everything ): I lost $470 at Winbonanza, $339 at RealPrize, $222 at LoneStarCasino, $190 something at HardRockBet. I feel so, so sick and sad right now. It all started when I tried to chase my losses on Winbonanza after losing $150, then making some back then losing $50, then canceling my $300 redemption and losing that, so then I moved onto HardRockBet and put in $125 and lost it, so I cancled my $339 redemption at RealPrize and lost it, and then I cancled my $222 redemption on LoneStarCasino and lost it. So then I put another $20 into HardRockBet, and I lost that as well. I even payed off my loans today and had like $1,000 in redemptions to look forward to. My gosh I feel so upset. On the bright side, the guy with the casino promo wrote me back earlie...
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