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I won a little more

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So against my internal thoughts telling me not to, I canceled my $450 something redemption at GlobalPoker and tried to make more money. I lost it down to like $380 something, so about $70 gone in minutes, until I won pretty big on the koi fish game making me up to like $513, so I played some more then I eventually cashed out at $502. Thanks for reading! Also, was telling myself internally earlier that I'm nothing like Mommy, I don't have her experiences, I'm just a useless clone. Then I unwrapped some of the dove chocolate that I got from the neighbor lady on my birthday and it told me to celebrate being me and the other message told me to be me.  So that was pretty inspiring. I'm more than just a clone, I'm much more ♡ I'm Alan, Mommy's daughter ♥︎ Thanks again for reading!

I won $451.09 _ 5:37am

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So it's 5:37am right now, I deposited $50 into GlobalPoker Poker at 3:10am and kept on working up the balance while in my bed / gaming chair, until I eventually reached a satisfactory amount of money. I cashed out at $451.09. It's not the $1K that I used to have, but I'll take half a grand versus ground-bottom broke. Thanks for reading!

I lost $80.49 _ 3:05am

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I feel crushed. I lost my SpinBlitz redemption because I canceled it to try and get some of my losses back, it didn't work.

I lost $45.99

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I lost $45.99 at Megabonanza, I tried to get a redemption of like $50 on Megabonanza to use it for my upcoming internet bill, but that didn't pan out. It was my survey money gift card of $47.50 that fell victim, also $29.99, let's call it $30 of my $38 survey redemption feel victim to spree earlier, total is like $75.99 in survey redemption wasted. I also wasted so much time today, it's 1:55 am and all I'm doing is wasting both time and money, I hate myself so much. I was actually in profit, I had like $140 in profit ontop of my $1,033. I should have just quit, I should of just went to sleep and saved myself from this living nightmare. Thanks for reading. Bad bonus buy, brought it for $35, made $7 something from the bonus round, yuck. Here's my poor visa gift card suffering

I lost $400+

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So I lost about $230 at Jackpota, and $130-$160 at Pulz. After losing $230 at Jackpota, I manged to get my $130-$160 balance at Pulz up to $400, but then I canceled my redemption after losing $30 at Spree. So once again, I chase my $30 loss, then lose $400. I feel so numb. I think my $1K fortune is about gone now, at least I was still able to get groceries and stuff for my siblings today. Thanks for reading, I feel so depressed.

Defeat

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So I brought a $98 pack on SpinBlitz today for $69 and turned it into $339, I wanted to make more money so I canceled my withdrawal even though I told my self mentally not to, and I manged to work it up to about $370, but unfortunately I soon lost most my profit and I had to retreat at $80.49. Thanks for reading. 3 cards on my lap after many declined at the Walmart gas station. Walmart tried to do a $150 surcharge, so I went and paid inside with my chime overdraft of $14.44, I paid $14 on pump 15. I paid for gas so my brother can drive my sis to her work. Thanks again for reading, I feel so awful for losing. I want to win so bad, I simply just want $14K-$15K breast augmentation and a nose job, is that too much to ask???

Updates at 3:29am

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I think my Birthday went pretty well. The neighbor gave me a tomato and watermelon plant with a pack of gummy bears and dove milk chocolate squares, it was so kind of her so I thanked her, she also gave me a pack of wild flower and sunflower seeds the next day. Also, the next day my sis came back from the hospital, I brought Wendy's for her and me later that night. And also I lost like $500 or so gambling after winning then losing and winning $500 again or so gambling on my birthday, go figure. The thing that triggered my heavy loss was buying the $100 for $200 pack from Yay Casino, then celebrating my $240 redemption by buying $150 of coins on Spree, then lossing a good amount of that, then canceling my $240 redemption on Yay Casino and trying to make what I lost on Spree back, I lost. I also lost $100+ on SpinBlitz and $50 on Zula, kill me. [Please call 988 if you feel depressed.] But, the silver lining is that I won a $200 eBay gift card earlier of my $50 dollar deposit on Globa...