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12:39am reflection

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I wrote this for $5 dollars for a study. Since I'm the only one in my own company I don't really have employees, I am however an employee of a part-time job. Being a part-time employee of a larger, more successful company than mines is kind of soul crushing. I was supposed to be more successful by this age. It is so frustrating being in your mid-20s and not being the super rich, super successful person you'd thought you'd be by now. I just feel like a failure, and even with a therapist it is difficult to get ahead in life. I don't get ahead very well, I'm always behind, always struggling, and it is absolutely depressing to be honest. It's been this way for the longest time and I just can't figure out how to get out of this curse.

10:57pm Purse fix x bowl shatter

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So I temporary fixed my purse strap, however later on after getting out of the car to shop at Walmart I forgot about the pink bowl beneath the car seat and it shattered to the ground. I brought my dinner into the car to eat dinner on the way to FedEx with my eldest brother and 2nd youngest sis to pick up my 2nd eldest sister. I was quite shocked when the bowl shattered. That was very sad because it was my Mommy's pink bowl, she used to eat from it before she passed. I felt very bad afterwards. Especially since I just finished playing a slot game before it happened, it was on BUX777, I did a $1,800 bet, won $168.30, Life and Death by Hacksaw Gaming, I used a demo account. I feel like a horrible person because these evil games have lead to horrible things that I've never intended to happen. I was in utter shock after that bowl shattered on the pavement. My 2nd youngest sis told me that it was okay and she informed me that I csn throw it away at Walmart so I don't get cut. So ...

8:14pm Bag Breakage

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A few minutes ago I ran outside to check the mail and my temu bag strap finally broke away, like no way! Thanks for reading!

6:46pm Candy

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So my 2nd eldest sister got a candy baggie at the mall's Halloween tables. She offered us all candy, she said and here's a three musketeers for Alan. That was pretty sweet of her ♡ it reminded me of what I was thinking aboit the other day when she mentioned last year that the three musketeers are for women, then weeks later she got me one after my surgery ♥︎ Anyway, the mini bar tasted fantastic! I thanked her for the 3 musketeers ♡ It was so sweet of her ♥︎ After that I went to Starbucks with my younger siblings. Thanks for reading!

5:42pm GameStop

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So my 2nd youngest sis suggested a Pokémon card for my eldest brother, so we took a look. We decided on a drone card. I signed up for Game Stop account (again cause they couldn't find my account) And we checked out. The card total was $1.06, which I actually had enough for. I realized that the smaller gifts are still enough. I shouldn't of had to feel bad about losing $$$$ betting trying to make more money for my family and I. The smaller things are still enough ♡ And it was real fun buying this card with my sister and I, that's real life joy, you know, not virtual casino. Thanks for reading ♥︎

5:35pm losing winning and mall browsing

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I used my last $10 on my PayPal for HardRockBet got $23, then lost $5, then another $5 and lost $9. So now I have $2. Thanks for reading. But also my siblings and I visited the college, it was empty but still fun. Also I went to SMyay with my big bro to get his stuff. Then my 2nd eldest and 2nd youngest sis went to the mall. My neck still hurts from about 12 minutes ago when attempting to do a near 180 with my neck to check on my eldest sister in the back seat, it was worth the pain to check on her. There's so many cosplayers at this mall, that's pretty cool.  Thanks for reading!

12:54pm loss

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I lost $50 on HardRockBet after I received my paycheck of $88 today. $16 went to a late UberEats grocery payment leaving me with about $65, so then I put $50 into HardRockBet hoping to make a turnaround, I also had like $3-$5 of bonuses available. I lost horribly. Also, Winbonanza, LoneStar and RealPrize don't want to give me any type of compensation for losing thousands. And ZumbaCards still hasn't processed my redemption. I'm at a loss right now.