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I lost $11 more from my $81 balance on Golden Heart Games. I should just get some rest at this point. 

On an attempt to re-earn my earnings, I canceled my $153 or $152 redemption on Golden Heart Games and I lost it all down to like $80, kill me. I guess I've lost $170 because I decided to try and make more money, it didn't work out in my favor and I hate myself for that. [If you feel suicidal, please call 988]. I still have like $140 in loans to pay back this week. I'm so devastated. Thank you for reading. 5:03am now, I should really get some rest.

I hate myself. I lost $20 more dollars at GlobalPoker.

4:23am. I lost $80 at loanstar casino after taking out $50+ in loan then winning $92 at Yaycasino the other day. I feel si horrid.  Thank you for reading.

So my 2nd youngest sis let me know that my 2nd eldest sister went to the gas station convince store, so I went there to follow her. On the way there, a bus stopped and dropped a student off. I didn't want to cause an interference with my presence, so I ran.  I saw a tall guy student in the bus and he yelled "Hey, where you going!" I was like, over there!  I felt like spider Gwen, lol.  Being so incognito and casually dressed. I finally teach the gas station, There, she forgot her card, so she was going to go back home to get it real quick, however I stepped in and gladly paid the for the goodies for my sis, just $4.14.  The clerk looked at me and asked, "sisters?" So I was like, "yeah (: My sister thanked me, "Thank you Alan". I was like, absolutely ♡ The clerk thanked me, too. Then I brought a $0.38 apple pop. And we walked back home together, my sister and I. Thanks for reading!

Earlier, after my Mom's funeral I noticed that I finally received the incentive payment for the women of color study that I completed in February. It took a while but I was glad to finally receive the $155, my bank was hounding me for the overdraft fee, I had to get $45 in my bank that day to cover the internet payment. So then I deposited $140 into realprize for their $170 pack. Realprize offers withdrawals straight to debit card, so I thought that'll be a great solution to move my gift card to my bank account via prize withdrawal. I ended up turning my original $140 investment into $200, then I lost it down to like $10, then I worked it up to $150 over the course of several hours. I still had $15 on my gift card, so I put $10 into chumba casino, but then I lost. I felt bad, so then I decided to chase my losses by canceling my redemption and try to make $10 extra. I ended up losing my $150.16 down to $0.06 cents. Now I feel like killing myself. I was ahead, but then I felt the...