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6:08pm my Mommy calls

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At 6:08pm, my mommy called through the white Toyota car my older brother was driving. My 2nd eldest sister and I are the 2 passengers. My mom called to say that she was getting sent to the ICU to help her breath, and that the nurses allowed her to give one last call. I told my mommy, "I love you". And my siblings in the call said the same message. The call was brief, but emotional. My brother than cried, inconsolable. I cheered him up by saying that she's getting help. I feel, empty right now. Yesterday, we visted her at Gainesville. She was transferred from the local hospital to Gainesville a day or two later from her initial hospital location. Earlier today I wrote this below, The Roof is finally being repaired today, and the bad news is that my mom is still in the hospital, unfortunately. She had to go 4 days ago, we visited her yesterday, she was more sick than we thought, I hope she pulls through, it was a little more than just a cold in the end, unfortunately. She h...
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Starbux Tree

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So I went into starbux with my 2nd youngest sis to order coffee with my GC and use the potty. The GC covered most of it, it was only $0.22 for the coffee in the endy. After the potty, my sis held my order for me and the water I ordered for her. I thanked her. I later noticed that the employee drew a tree on my mocha frap coffee, that was cute indeed. I later played some Pulz casino and won 100× $0.10 free play bet and redeemed a $10 ebay GC, so that's basically free momey if I don't count my previous purchases and losses and only take in my free play into account. Thanks for reading. Funny it's a tree, I told my youngest sibling earlier today that I'm one with the trees, and that at the mental hospital I told my therapist that my lemon tree died, but I got a new one. Thanks again for reading.
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Police showed up again

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While trying to complete surveys online for money, currently on the one involving US War on Foreign Nations, there was a knock at the door type of situation, my older brother answered. Yes the police showed up again, wanting to speak with me. So I talked with them in regards to the 7-11, employment troubles and the treat to myself. I explained that we were banned from 7-Eleven due to us using the bathroom there too many times because we didn't have running water at the time. And for the jobs, I'll keep applying. My eldest sister said that she was applying, too. My brother was also outside keeping me company. The guy police agreed, and the black fem police agreed as well and let me and my eldest sis know that we need people in the workforce. The DCF worker guy also talked to me in regards to my Instagram post two weeks ago about if I don't get a Job in a month I'll x_x myself. So then I explained to the social worker and the police officers that I'm feeli...
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Job Rejectionz

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I Got this Safelite job rejection email ri ght after uploading  a video of my Burlington job rejection. I really was hoping to get this  job. I'm in hell. Video description of aforementioned video? Speech Impediment, they say, but at least I can still clearly express myself in another way.  Trans Girl 👧🏽 Talks about her endless Failures.  Why I'm I even still trying at this point? What's the end goal if the there is no end?  The pursuit of making money has lead me to madness and sadness. Ironically, the only thing real now to me seems to be virtually reality, e.g digital photography, music and videography.  You know you're disconnected from the real world when a day without a screen feels like an eternity.  Maybe, I'm my own enemy, no that's what they want me to believe. Money, the one thing I've spent my life chasing is the enemy, the very word gives me PTSD.  How can something so essential in this country also lead to m...
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Spoiled Milk

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The Kirkland Costco milk ended up being spoiled. I made hot chocolate and took a sip and now I feel extremely nauseous. I had to discard all the milk. The milk also smelt awful. Thanks for reading, I feel so sick, ugh. Also, I lost $3.44 on that bad milk, and several hours because I ordered it at like 12pm then waited till almost 6pm to receive it. I put on the note that I wanted EXP dates of May/June and beyond, however I got April 12th instead which is actually the anniversary of when I was released from the Mental Hospital last year. That was my 2nd trip to the mental hospital. My 3rd trip was March 9th or so. April 12th 2025 was also supposed to be the day I went to the GameStop job fair, but I guess that didn't happen due to mental hospital. By the time I was discharged it was too late to arrange myself for the event unfortunately. It took til like June for the 2nd job fair, I didn't get the job but I was invited for October. October came and the job wasn't available. ...
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Macy's Interview

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The Macy's E-Interview went pretty well this afternoon, I hope.  This is my 2nd time applying and interviewing to Macy's, so fingers crossed on this one. I just needed my microphone for this interview, so no camera needed apparently, it's a shame, I had my Webcam and Ringlight all setup, lol. But, I think I did well. I could have spent th whole day angry and sad about my previous job rejections, but instead I kept moving foward, because that's what you do in a way, soldier. Also, I brought from Costco for the first time today to get a gallon of milk, yay! I choose the one of the slowest shipping options on Uber Eats to get heavy discounts, so that way in the end the delivery cost was only about .10-20 cents. I'm such a financial genius sometimes when I'm not a financial failure, lol. Thanks for reading!
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I didn't get the Job at Burlington I feel Depression.

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I didn't get the Job at Burlington I feel Depression. Then after the job rejection email I got an email from One Pay reminding me about my overdue balance. I don't even care at this point, forget that stuff. I feel so depressed that I'm actually some twisted type of happy right now, because the depression has actually energized and inspired me, I feek like I can do whatever I want because this life is already ruined, lol. Thanks for reading. Thanks for reading.
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