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Hours earlier I received a $25 visa gift card from game beta testing. So then with that gift card I brought a $45 SC pack from Winbonanza for about $19.98, and I brought chocolate chip cookies and a crow necklace from Amazon with most of the remaining $5.02. I then played the $45 down to like $20 something, then up to $69, then $77. Then at Jackpota, I played free play with the free daily SC, turning $1 something into like $14, then $12 redeemed a Starbucks Gift Card, canceled it to make morr money, then I worked the $12 up t0 $62, then gradually lost it all the way back down to $11. I felt bad, so then I played with my $77 balance on Winbonanza, till I got up to $118, then down to $60 and $70 something, then up to $114, then all the way up to $226.39. My eyes hurt from all the screen time, but it's my hustle to pay the bills. I got a $50 insurance payment due on May 1st, not to mention my $100s worth of other bills. $5 I also got from doing Swagbucks feminine survey earlier today,...

April 28th, late night 2026. My 2nd eldest sister was admitted to the hospital today under the guidance of my 2nd youngest sister and me, because my elder sis looked too skinny and she was acting kinda funny. My big bro drove my older sis and I to the hospital. I went into the hospital room with my sis. The doctors are going to run some tests.

I was about 2ft heigh, fantasizing about jumping from a higher height,  then I saw some beautiful flowers that distracted me, so then I came down, although at the price of a sore back. Then I investigated the flowers.  My brother was on the phone with my Mother's half-sister, my Aunt that took away my knife two weeks ago.  My aunt on the phone asked about how I was feeling and stuff and asked if I was still blaming myself.  I was like sometimes I do blame myself, sometimes I don't. She's like, that's good as long as you don't blame yourself more than you do. I also told her about how I was depressed but then flowers distracted me. She said that it was a sign. She asked what I've been doing lately. I told her that I've been doing some projects and surveys. She also asked if I've been doing gardening, so then I thought that was a good idea, and I think that's when I mentioned the flowers I saw. Thanks for reading.

As time has passed, my Mother's passing hasn't gotten better. I had a dream of a digital artwork file I've made for my video game Navigate Nudibranch, I thought that Mommy can see it, but in the dream I realized that she can't see it. I woke up and went to sleep several more times, because sleeping is the closest thing to dying, it is better than staying awake in intense physical and mental pain.  I had like 3 more additional dreams, and I remembered that artwork file each time. There's so many things that I haven't been able to tell and show my Mom, and it sickens me.  I want revenge on God, I want to harness the power of evil and destroy this awful world. Or on the flip side, I can fulfill my dreams and work towards better in the world. Gosh, I feel so robbed of time with my Mommy by spending so much time fixated on trying to earn money for the family this life is just so joky I think I want to get myself killy. Oh and by the way, on my awakening, ...

Late night April 27th, So I did some digging tonight and figured that my Mom most likely passed away due to the chemotherapy drugs, because she was doing relatively well before she started the chemo, after the chemo she rapidly declined, unfortunately. My brother was on the phone with my Mom's friend Sharon, and my bro gave his phone to me so I can speak with her. We talk and she gives me perspective that everything happens for a reason so if I go it could prevent something important from happening. Her stories and motivation were beautiful, I thanked her. She also gave me a virtual hug and my brother gave me a physical hug, that was so touching. Thank you everyone ♡

With a dime and four quarters, I brought pink razors. Thankz four reading.