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On my way to the restroom in Sam's Club, I took out another loan because my balance id running low. I should receive $25 tomorrow. There was like $9 dollars in fees though, lol. My 2nd youngest sis went into the women's restroom with me, well actually more like she escorted me there and I followed her because I was too distracted taking out a loan and I nearly went to the guys restroom if not her guidance. I thanked her. My 2nd sis pointed to the steel rectangular box with a coin slot labbed $1; she asked me what it was. I filled in the details for her after we fully exited the restroom and I explained that it was for tampons... Anyway, today was pretty awesome. Thanks for reading! 7:18pm.

I ordered a medium fries for my 2nd eldest sister. Earlier, my eldest brother recommended that we go inside McDonald's because it might be faster. So I ordered for pickup at the counter. My 2ne youngest sis and I entered McDonald's. I encountered my McDonald's employee friend there, we greeted each other. I soon get my medium fries, then my younger sis and I exit. I see my employee friend again, we told each other to have a great day. I was like, thanks, you too! My employee friend approached me and asked what my pronouns were. I was like, she/her. She/Her ♡ My friend was like, thumbs up and said "mines are He/Him". I was like, cool! ♡◇♡◇♡ My 2nd youngest sis watched us interact,  she looked proud. It's kind of funny, earlier today I was thinking about how my pronouns can sometimes be "he/him" and how my IG bio had "She/Her/He". But, you know, being referred to with She/Her pronouns makes me feel more like me. Anyway, thanks for reading, tr...

I took a shower before and after playing hard with my pusay on her surgery anniversary. I even watched a video of me from last February year when I still had a wormy to look back and reflect and realize... I really did get my money's worth from my FFS and Vaginoplasty, because I looked totally different. Although, I did look pretty hot with the blue & pink pastel wig. I had a fun shower, but my pusay kind of stings now. But anyway....  I went back to Americanluck Casino and cancled my $70.04 redemption because I was worried about money and I was hungry to make more of it. I ended up losing it badly, like downs to a few cents left.  So then I cancled my $514 dollar redemption at LoneStarCasino in an attempt to make my $70 back. It began well, I was up like $60, but it didn't end well because I tried to make more money and before I knew it I've lost like $100+ dollars of my winnings, until I won it back on one last game and made out redeeming $606....

I was playing with my $1 something free play on Americanluck and I worked it up to like $71, I ended up redeeming $71.04. This is a good comeback from when I lost like $60 something at Americanluck while recovering from Vaginoplasty in the hospital. I'm pretty greatful for the $70, but somber at the same time because I'm still drowning in loan repayments and installment payments. But, it's better than nothing! Thanks for reading!

So it's been a year since my Vaginoplasty, yes! Me with my HRT baggie. Also my $266 from Swiss Colony came in earlier today, as well as $50 something from ManyVids one of the platforms I post on. The $50 something from MV was short lived because most of it was deducted by my WiFi bill, which isn't too bad because I need the wifi to post more stuff, so that's actually kind of bad-azz that my body paid for the internet. Anyway, I had like $266 still, so I put $199 into LoneStarCasino and $19 into Yay Casino. LoneStarCasino gave me a $30 credit earlier, and their email still called me "brother" even though I corrected them that it was "sister" last time, but I still appreciated the customer service nonetheless. I also had a $199 coin pack worth $300. I played Plinko since it was low volatility and easy return. I eventually withdrew like $300 something. The $19 pack worth $40 on Yay casino, I worked that up to $50, enough for a withdr...

So today I worked like 7+ hours at my job, because I need the money. Earlier today my 2nd youngest sister asked about asking Daddy for like $10 because we needed juice and rice. So I'm like, ok. So I texted Daddy about it, and he sent $60, so I thanked him. Although, I was saddened that it landed in the account which had a negative balance of like $79 from the automotiv Grant App loan repayment, so my account ended up being like -$18. Still not a positive balance for groceries. I didn't let my Daddy know about that because I felt so guilty. Gambling debt has ruined me this week. I should have just cut my bloody losses. I ended up $2,500+ in the right direction a few weeks ago, but then I began losing at these casinos so badly that I'm now like -$500+ in the red. Gosh, I hate this I hate this I hate this!!!! I've been trying to fix my money issues with these dang online methods, such as crypto trading, gambling and stock trading, yet I'm just right where ...

I feel beyond sad right now. I just took out another $20 loan, make that $22.99 if you add the expenses fee. Anyway, I lost $15 of it at Spree and $5 at Winbonanza. This loss streak could have been avoided if I just didn't lose $300 of my $2,200 winnings a few weeks ago. All this wouldn't be happening right now. I hate my life. Thanks for reading.

I took out another $50 loan earlier today and I brought some groceries and stuff. I used $24.99 ($25.71 after tax) of it for Rolla Casino for a $50 Pack. I worked it up to like $60 something before losing it all down to like $0.08 cents, I feel so defeated, thank you Hacksaw Gaming for stealing my hope. Although, it was fun shopping at Publix and stuff, so it was still a good day despite my losing streak and poverty. Anyway, Thanks for reading!

My $34 Dollar payment from OF came in earlier today, I've been waiting a while for it to arrive. Also, I had found out that my WellsFargo account was in Negative -$79 because of Grant automatic loan repayment. I also had my laptop Zip installment payment not go through. All this financial pressure, boiling over, this made me feel the need to gamble to make it back because Negative bank account balances can cost me greatly. I then took out a new $50 loan with Grant to try and at least double it to pay off the previous loan Negative balance. I went to Modo casino and I put in $45 for a $50 coin pack. I hit a 50x on number 6 on the gravity roulette, so I was up at like $88 on my Modo casino balance. I eventually played slots which quickly drained my balance. I then brought another coin pack, which was $30. This subtracted like $30 from my $34 OF payment which I worked weeks for, my vag still hurts, especially since I made a new video earlier today for PH and OF. Anyway, I lost the $30...

I woke up at 6 something am to complete a live survey that was a little over 75 minutes long. It was fun and it was about artwork. I received a $30 incentive. I wanted it to grow to at least $50, so I went to Baba Casino which had a $50 for $24.99 deal. I played with the $50 and lost it badly, but I eventually got up to like $80 something, but I had to get up to $100 to redeem cash. I went down to $70, $60, $50, $20s and back up to $50s then back down to $20s, $10s and eventually $0.04 cents. I blame the fact that a lot of the good slots are unavailable now due to new regional restrictions, so I was left with really bad slot providers such as Booming Games, Spinomenal and Runy Play, which left me with a balance of like $0. This has definitely upset me, now I only have a balance of $5.01 out of my $30 gift card. I'm so stressed right now, I wanted to start the day off strong, now it's falling apart, and I need to go and start work at 1pm on top of all that. It's just three h...

I did a transphobic political call survey that lasted like over half an hour, no compensation, but I went through it anwayway because I was already so invested into it. The caller on the phone was asking me how I feel about immigrant Healthcare and  Transgender Healthcare and Surgeries and transgender rights and biological 'men' in women's sports. My reaction was like, if the US has the resources to help us, then why not benefit our fellow humans? My reaction to the secondary transgender demonization was like, these questions are pretty offensive to me, this is what I fight for. The survey was conducted by Dynata, my own flesh and blood, because I used to work for them, so it felt like a betrayal because why would they make such a transphobic survey. Towards the end, the caller thanked me for my time, and I thanked her as well. I did mention how the Transgender subjects were upsetting to me. She apologized and let me know that she had to read them because it was the script....

I went shopping with my 2nd youngest sister and eldest brother today. In the car I played Crown Coins Casino and had free $6 of coins, with that I eventually earned up to $50, $70 and beyond. We arrived back home and my youngest sibling played the WNBA award ceremony for us, that was pretty cool, the medals were pretty. Anyway, I'm still playing the live American roulette game on Crown Coins Crashino, I've had about over an hour invested into it. I make it up to $123, and I'm pretty stoked about that. We had to head out again, this time Sam's Club, so I went and used the restroom real quick. I put my phone on the wall of the bathtub and pull down my pantyhose and underwear to use the toilet. While on the toilet I place some bets that didn't work out too good. I was eventually down to like $70-$90. I tried to bet on number 6, but the timer ran out, and of course, number 6 won. I was down very low by the time I got out of the bathroom. Outside while headin...

It looks like I was so tired and stressed out last night that I forgot to take my night time dosage of estradiol and pain killer pills. No worries, I'll just have to try again later tonight. This usually happens to me after I'm tired and I'm facing a heavy losing money streak, I forget to do basic essentials. Anyway, my dream was pretty interesting, I think my mom was in my dream, and I figured out that she's dead but alive again currently somehow, but unfortunately it was just a dream. This life is cruel. Also, my $93 dollar laptop installment payment didn't go through because I'm basically broke, which sux. I knew I shouldn't have touched my $2,300 when I was ahead two weeks ago. Dang it. Thanks for reading.

I had like $12 left in my account so I brought a $30 pack at Dime Sweeps and lost it down to $0.12 cents. I feel d3ad. Please call 988 if you feel similar. Thank you.

My big brother reminded me that I wanted to buy Milk at Publix, so I thanked him and we headed out. My 2nd youngest sister called in to let me know that my youngest sib wanted watermelon. I think I heard my youngest sib want jellybeans, so my 2nd youngest sister said, oh she brought some earlier. It's always awesome when my siblings use she/her pronouns on me. At the store in addition to the milk, I brought some watermelon and orange juice as well as requested by my siblings. You know what, a store Clerk ask me if I was paying with cash, so I nodded yes. He then tells the store lady, "She's paying with cash" I'll need some change, or something like that. I felt so happy that the clerk saw me as a she, it was totally worth losing my $228 in winnings earlier tonight, because if not for that, that moment probably wouldn't have happened. You know, that's like what I was telling my therapist earlier. It saddens me when I'm misgendered. So when people see as...

I spoke with my therapist about how I'm ahead, but then slip back, so many times that I've come to the conclusion many times that I'm actually in hell.  Anway, about 10 minutes before six I was finished speaking with my therapist because I had to cut our conversation short and reschedule for next week because I had to head out with my eldest brother and 2nd eldest sis. I used the $33 in GrubHub to get us Wendy's and stuff. Then I transferred $24 something to the black card so my brother can pay for the gas. I felt pretty optimistic about today, things were looking up. Then we dropped off my 2nd eldest sis at her workplace. I had so many thoughts in my head about money and expenses, so then I cancled my $195 redemption at CardCrush in hopes of making more money because the bills and expenses were pilling up so much and I still owed many bills. I ended up turning my $195 into $228 with Gravity Roulette. I knew I had to withdraw at least $200, but I thought tha...

I went shopping at Walmart this afternoon, it was pretty fun. I dressed all goth. I walked around the sections for a bit because I was buying time editing and uploading my TikTok video regarding how I'm still a Bad Glitch regardless of me being born a woman or not, Glitch; https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTU9XcbY4/ Later, I was also singing some K-Pop Demon Hunters verse "Called a problem child cause I got too wild, but now that's how I'm getting paid". Then after that a Walmart lady stopped me to ask if I was okay. I was like, yes I'm just looking for the bread. Thanks for asking (: I eventually found the bread section and I soon completed my purchases. Also, the $50 I received from that survey earlier came in handy for this shopping journey. Speaking of money, earlier today I also received the $147 from that casino site, I then put $100 of it into another casino site (CardCrush) and lose pretty bad and won pretty bad....

I was watching YouTube on TV with my younger siblings, and my youngest played a TLC YouTube video of I am Jazz with the Facebook Live stream clip.  I was like, wait I need to get my phone I haven't seen this one before. Then when I returned, my sib was like, have you seen this one? And it was one with a car wash to raise money for hormones. I was like, I haven't seen this one before. Then they got $50, then I looked at my phone and I too received $50. That was so funny. I told my siblings, and they laughed. My 2nd youngest was like, did it transfer to you? I was like, yes (: The show reminded me to take my hormones and stuff. I haven't seen I am Jazz on the TV for a while, so it was cool to see that show again, even if it was just a clip. We watched some more videos, like the music video, "All the things you said running through my head". I thanked them for the videos. Anyway, thanks for reading!

Today at work was pretty short, just 3 hours. I've been listening to 9/11 stories earlier today and they made me emotional. My workplace also had some 9/11 tributes, so that was inspiring. Also, I received an email from LoneStarCasino telling me that they couldn't give me 700 SC back, but they boosted my account. They referred to me as 'brother' I thanked them,  and let them know that it's 'sister. I saw that 150 SC was added to my account, so I played through it in order to withdraw it. I lost badly, then got up to $190s eventually. Then $170s, $70s, $50s, $20s. I was eventually down to $9.11,  and it was 6:11pm. This to me was a sign that today is a day to be honored and respected. And as if someone was talking to me, I opened up Live Roulette again with my last  $9 SC. Then I saw the number I was thinking of, 6. It just won without me. I try 6 again and lose. Something told me to put  most of my coins on number ...

I took out like $125+ in loans tonight to chsee my losses. I brought a $85 pack at Modo Casino valued at $100. I played it up to $130 something then ended up at $0.29. But, I also brought toilet paper, paper towels, Styrofoam cups and chocolate tonight. Thanks for reading. Update: 9:55pm I put another $20 of my loan money into Chumba Casino and I lost brutally to Gravity Roulette. I feel so defeated, truly. I was ahead yesterday by like $1K, but now I'm deeper into debt. This hurts my heart. I'm starting to get PTSD now from certain numbers, numbers that the roulette chose instead of the numbers that I choose. I guess that's how it goes. My sorrows, my money woes, my sorrows.