Vag Scar x Downhill Life

I'm sad that my (Vag) has a scar, I just noticed today. As if I wasn't going through enough already, now my kitty has a 1/³ inch scar ): I hope it wasn't from when I was shaving the other day, I hate Amazon E-Razors ]: 

Life is going down hill so fast. Maybe lazor treatment can reduce the scar? I do hope so. I do hope so. 

Also, I think I'm going to sell my new phone to try and pay off yhe $800 storage bill, because if I lose my and family's stuff, I'll definitely go permanently insane, and that scars me so much. 

I actually could have paid the storage off if I didn't try to make more money with the money I've won already from gambling, I had at least $1000 just days ago, but hundreds in bills to be paid, $800 storage, $300 pawn.

My older sister who was employed didn't want to help pay at the time for the family storage unit and stuff, so then I knew that it was all up to me to fix the problem.

I thought that I could try to make more money by playing with my winnings, right? Yeah that ended horribly and I've lost all my money and the bills are still due, gosh I hate myself, dang it! I was freaking financially ahead!!! I should have listened to myself and banned myself from those casino sites while I still had $585 and another $500 incoming, but I digress.

I kinda blame those church laddies from a few days ago, though. They asked if I could come up with $20K in a week to cover my mom's burial, and I was like, yes I have some tricks.

I didn't want my mom to get, you know burnt to ashes, I thought that a burial would keep her whole.

RIP Mom ♥︎

But yeah, if you're reading this, I didn't make $20K in a week, nor was I able to pay off the $800 storage bill, because I once again lost my $1K gambling fortune trying to make more money.

How can I turn $25 into $260, then $850, but lose $1K so quickly?

Gosh, my whole life is a money issue mesz.

I'm still waiting for the day though, the day when I can buy a $10K meal and still sleep easy, yes the day that I become a rich celebrity, the anticipation of that day is worth fighting for. If Life is finite, then I'll strive to fill wealth and sin in it, make these years on earth fun. ★

#gothgirl
#transgirl
#trans

10:36pm

I told myself, I blame those church ladies. Then I thought when I said, I have some tricks.

Then I unwrapped my chocolate and it said not to overthink things, lol.

Ah, my life stinks, and my left elbow still hurts from weeks ago when I accidentally hit it in an attempt to turn off the bathroom light switch.

Gosh, I'm losing it.

Thanks again for reading.
Thanks for reading.

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Swanson Ovarian Glandular WARNING! 9 Months on Bovine Ovary Transgender M2F Trans Feminization Review

Image
Greetings, this is a review of the Swanson Ovarian Glandular capsules. I've purchased these from Amazon in mid July 2020 because I secretly wanted to feminize my masculine body. When the pills arrived in the mail I was very exited and ran back to the house and discreetly hid the pills in my drawer.  We were going on a trip, so I hid the pills in my backpack. I soon took my first pill, at approximately 6:07 PM EST 7/27/2020 I'm not sure how the first pill was exactly, however, I had a schedule I would follow, and I would take about 1 or 2 pill(s) a day, then I soon increased the dosage to 3 a day. It wasn't long before I've consumed my first bottle of the bovine ovary pills, I ordered more directly through Swanson Health, I was afraid of running out of bottles, so I would just order more, and more and more. I've spent roughly $147.01 US Dollars in Swanson Ovarian Glandular Pills  from swansonvitamins.com alone.  The Multi-Glandular For Women tablets totaled ...
Read more

Nearly killed myself a couple of days ago by attempting self-castration, again.

Image
Though I nearly killed myself a couple of days ago by attempting self-castration, again. I'm feeling much better, thanks to y'all positive messages & family talk last night. Thank you all to those who have helped me with my difficult feelings and thoughts of mutilation and death. It is true that we can't risk death on doing self-surgery. These gender surgeries can be done professionally. Last night, my family discussed with me getting actual gender surgery in January after my spine surgery in November. I'm grateful that I'm still alive. Depression mixed with desperation is a true beast. It leads me to dangers ideas and actions. Please be easy on the negative feedback y'all, I take things very literally thanks to my body dysphoria and OCD. Like in 2020, when someone committed about me not being 'beautiful',  I took it to the extreme and took life threatening online-brought breast growth pills for 9 months straight  until I couldn't tak...
Read more

TransFeminine Failed DIY Castration Attempt Elastrator Fail.

Image
Greetings, Just to let y'all know. My DIY Gender Surgery: Surgical Supplies Unboxing Video I was going to perform self-surgery last night. The plan was to ultimately remove / kill my testicles. I've lost count of how many times I've attempted this. But, this time, I had the proper equipment. In my research, I've learned that many have bleed out or died. Thanks to lots of research and learning about animal castration methods,  I aimed for an alternative amputation technique. I was going to band and stitch together the top area,  creating a seal and blocking off excess blood from flowing out of my body. The lower portion under the seal, which would be the genitalia, would essentially die off from no circulation. After wound healing on the top portion, I'll remove the lower portion. That was essentially the safest and easiest solution. I had purchased a castration tool specifically made for doing this. I also received other medical supplies such as stitches...
Read more