My bo0b surgery, the insurance denied it.

So while getting my hair ready, and stuff like that for my McDonald's Interview, I get a call and a text. I missed the call, but replied to the text, and I get an instant call back so basically the surgery manager lady told me that my insurance denied my case, [och, why do I even pay for this insurance?].

So my option was to pay the full $7,800 (used to be $966), or change insurance or cancel.

I had to reschedule/cancel.

Also, I got another call from the surgery coordinator, she said 

"I just realized that it was a breast augmentation and rhinoplasty. 

The rhinoplasty would cost much more than $7000.

But, you can still shop around though. I'll get them to give you a quote for both of them.".

In a low voice, I was like, okay thanks for letting me know...

You know, this has been my fear, I'm not able to pay for the insurance in time and I lose the surgery due to some policy change in Sad Modern America.

I also feared not being able to pay the $966 in time and then having to cancel, because it would of been so perfect to get boobs right before my b-day, that's what I thought earlier today while in the bathroom/shower.

Also, after the shower I thought of how I gave $8K+ to my family over the past months, and how bad it'll be if I can't get the surgery anymore due to not having the money, well thoughts come true. 

But at least I was able to help them out.

I also thought what if there's a reason I'm not getting the surgery, you know not having $966 on me. I thought maybe something is protecting me, maybe the surgery would go wrong or something.

But anyway, I told the surgery lady that I'll probably have $7000 in a few months.

So, let's a go, I guess.

Gosh, it's been a sad last 20 minutes.

Thanks for reading..

Weird, earlier I had a dream of like beauty medical professional ladies and there was text over them, and the numbers were climbing higher and higher, $100, $200, $300, $700 something, money granted to me, I thought this is enough for my surgery.

Well, it seems I need to get those numbers a bit higher now.

At least I feel better now about not having that $1000, anymore. I need like almost 8 times that amount for the bressts alone.

I guess it's time to go on a wild money making lottery playing chase again.

Weird also, I searched co-pilot yesterday on how to make $10K, that's a little funny I had that number in mind.

I used that co-pilot laptop app to try and pre-qualify for a $60 co-pilot study.

Anyway,

I have a lot of money to make, let's get to it!

You know, a thought came to me, I thought that if someone calls me beautiful than I might not need the surgery, which reminds me of what the OG pyschiatrist said to me on day 1 of getting admitted to the mental hospital two weeks ago after I told her that I need more facial surgery.

She said, "Well, you look fine to me"

I was like, "Thank you".