Back home x Lost $180

On the drive back home from the Mental Hospital in the Z cab, I played some casino sites while chatting with the cab guy.

I had like $50 something in my Golden Hearts Games account that was probably finally granted to me while I was at the Mental Hospital after I completed a RevU offer like a month ago and had to go through support multiple times to get my offer to credit.

Anyway, I turn that $50 into about $80.

Then arrive back home. 

I see that Yay Casino has an offer for $100 for $50, so I use like all my PayPal and Charles Schwab money to buy it. I waited and worked so hard for that momey.

I lose it all down to $17, run it up to $80, then lose it all again.
Then I go back to Golden Hearts, run the $80 down to $60 and below, then up to $100, then down to $40, then $105, and finally $160 after very long hours.

Then while preparing to go to sleep in my gaming chair I decide to do some fun free play on Pulz, run a dollar up to $8, then lost it, so close to withdrawing a $10 gift card.

So then I get the urge that I need to win. So I cancel my $160 redemption at Golden Hearts Games and run the $160 down to $120, then up to $180. I should have called it a night then, it was already like mid 2am.

But then, I wanted to get to $200, but in the end I lost it all down to $0.02 cents and I feel like going back to the mental hospital.

Thanks for reading. I hate my life.

I was already depressed, losing my health insurance bill money, doesn't help.


4:19am.

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