3pm I spoke with my Therapist

I spoke with my Trans Therapist Lady friend over Zoom, from 2 to 3pm. She gave my mind more clarity and talking to here made me feel less guilty about my plans not working out for the better, because in the end I only tried to help me and my family.

We discussed my mom's hospital condition, my recent police encounter, spine and knee limitations, social media negativity, earning money, lossing money in creative investments and lossing money in casinos, pricy cosmetic surgery bills, family war situations and feeling better after the discussion.

I also got word from my 2nd youngest sis that my uncle's wife arrived at our house.

I told my therapist about that. She was like, oh, is she supportive?

And I was like, I was just thinking that she doesn't know that I'm trans.

I then told her about how the visitor is one my dad's sister's. But then soon corrected myself, like oh wait, no. She's my dad's brother's wife. She's on my mom's side of the family war.

We also talked about a lot of stuff.

Anyway, I discussed a lot with my therapist and felt better after it.

Thanks for reading.

Update. My 2nd youngest sister called to tell me that Grandpa and Thora are here. 

I was like, oh, thanks for letting me know...

I know my grandparents are going to go all Transphobic on me for wearing this dress.

Forget them. I got me. It's funny, my therapist and I were just talking about earlier how Thora (Step-Grandma) was talking $h1t about me and then I had to go to the mental hospital. I was like, yeah, like 2 days later I had to go to the mental hospital because of what she said getting to me. I really felt like I've ruined my family and when she said that (me being the reason for everything happening) to me, it confirmed it.

So yeah, my therapist and I discussed that stuff. Anyway, I think there would be a huge transphobic argument when I get back home, lol.

It doesn't matter, I'm still me.
And like what I thought earlier,

Males transitioning to Female are actually de-transitioning because we all begin Female ♡

Thanks for reading!

3:37pm.


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3:46pm

Update, my 2nd eldest sister let me know that they left, grandpa, Thora, ect. 

So that to me was a relief.

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Update, while at Publix moments later, my sis tells me that they all came back.

My nerves flair.
Update

4:13pm

My sis called again to let me know that they left again.

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