AT&Turmoil

AT&Turmoil. I had purchased AT&T internet after my Xfinity Internet failed and hasn't been working since I brought it in the past two weeks.

Anyway, the AT&T installation was today so I woke up like at late 4am and got ready for the installation.

I cleaned my room for a very long time and hurt my already fragile spine and joints in the process.

I cleaned up so so much, and removed a lot of the debris, insects, a frog and mold and stuff.

And then my mom woke up and she appreciated the clean up but then we had a big argument when she realized that I was cleaning to have someone arrive at the house to install the internet.

She didn't want anyone in the house at this time due to the mold and the holes in the roof.

This was frustrating for me so I got very sad, because that high-speed internet was my way to get access to the online opportunities and jobs I needed.

I was so sad about this no standard internet thing in the house that I recommend to my mom and bro that perhaps I should get an apartment or office, since I need high-speed internet and a quiet place to do work.

I've been losing so much money since not having access to sufficient wi-fi.

So anyway, I had to tell the installation people to reschedule when the arrived.

While I was talking to my mother and brother about my sadness with the wi-fi problem,

my drawing tablet fell flat, then my blue ceramic plate fell on the floor and shattered, so that just symbolizes the destination of my life.

I think a little later I sadly sat on a chair and like sighed, then my mom hugged me to which I thanked her, it was helpful.

But, my soul is like, kinda empty.

It was so sad, I felt like my opportunities were crushed, I had so many things lined up for today and now it's gone.

But hopefully not for long because my grandpa is coming over on the Weekend to try and help us repair the holes in the roof.

I asked why I was in Hell, so then my mom explained to me that she never wanted any of her children to be hell.

Also after the shattering of my plate,

I took a selfie with it in the room I cleaned up, and my mom was like, no not the shattered plate and the worse hour of your life, come here.


another AT&T personnel came over to ask if the installation was successful.

So I sadly explained to him that I had to reschedule because my family didn't want anyone coming in. I tried my best to clean up, but it wasn't enough.

I come back inside and apologize to my mom.

Anyway, my mom and bro did suggest alternatives, 

so I thanked them, but it still stings like a wasp that I was that close to new opportunities, then I literally just had to close the door to that opportunity, twice.


Thank you so much for reading.

P.s. my headphones also fell onto the still ptetty moldy floor towards the end of my cleaning, so I had to clean them with 91% alcohol and stuff.

Also my brother tried to help me fix the preexisting xfinity box but I thanked him and let him know that, "it's okay ): ".

Thanks again for reading.

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