My mom hugged me

It was around mid 11am, after a guy called me about putting our house on the market.

My 2nd younger sister heard the call and started crying.

I abruptly ended the call after telling the guy on the phone that the house isn't on the market.

My family and I went to comfort my sister.

I felt mad guilty about everything, then broke my tripod in a fit of anger towards myself.

I then said, I want to destroy myself, but I can't! 

My mom tried to calm me down.

I was so livid by the fact that I was existing, I just ruin everything, I just waste resources.

My mom tried to convince me that I am helpful and stuff.

I eventually get to my laptop and rapidly apply to jobs like Wendy's and McDonald's.

Then I accidentally cut my hand with my nail while rapidly rolling my right dress sleeve in a fit of depression and anger.

Then while I was applying to McDonaldz, I said something like, "Well, I'm still dumb though".

My mom was like, what was that?

So I reiterated.

Then my mom hugged me and she was like, no, no, it's people telling you those things that aren't true.

Then my eyes started watering and stuff, I almost cried.

After that, I drew a violent drawing of I was feeling.

Thanks for reading.