I lost over $67 dollars

I lost over $64 dollars gambling, I feel so awful. I even quit depositing money into a casino for a while until tonight after I won like $31 dollars on Sportzino playing the great American slot game from hacksaw using free plays. I tried to reach $50 to cash out without depositing anything, but I failed. This was around late 11pm or something.

I lost a free $31, so I felt bad.

So then I went to Baba Casino and deposited $24.99 because they had a 100% sale where you can get $50 SC for only $24.99 USD, so I took it.

But then I lost it, and I only had that money because I took out a loan with chime.

I've already spent like $60 something dollars previously with my family to get gas and groceries and stuff, I had a strong urge to make that money back somehow.

So then I deposited like $20 into Pulz, lost it, then deposited $5.99 and $7.99, I lost that as well.

Also, the two loans I took out had a fee for like $2, so the $60 I took out was more like $64.

I feel so broken, so dead. 

I started the decline in the car like at late 11pm, now it's like 12:45am back at the hotel.

It's funny because earlier I was thinking, if I make a deposit into a casino I would die (or something like that), so then I gasped.

My mom heard me, so I explained that I'm tired of the scam sites and stuff, so we talked about scam sites and stuff.

Anyway, I'm so sad that I lost the money, especially loan money.

Thanks for reading.
Tech College Mail directed to me that I found in the pile of mail my 2nd elder sister brought out of the mailbox of your abandoned house. I thanked her.

Thanks for reading.

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