Quality time with my Brother

I spent the day and night with my brother, he is an overnight visitor in the hospital.
We watched Beetlejuice Beetlejuice and Spiderman no way home on the TV.

I also got lunch and dinner.

Also, I gave him $20 so he can get something to eat himself, he was hesitant at first, but I insisted and so did my mom on the phone.

He got a pizza and a soda and I was happy that he got something. The pizza looked so great!

The nurses were super nice to me, and I also did some PE two times today. It began with walking, then with doing the stairs, it was fun.

When night struck, I talked to my brother about gender stuff and dysphoria and my crazy journey of self-experimentation with weird online pills and stuff, anaRex, mental hospitals, telling my mom about what was going with me, until finally where I'm at today.

The conversation ended with him saying "I love you". I felt so touched and emotional. I then reply in the same sentiment, "I love you".

This was truly a beautiful day and night.

Thanks for reading!
Also, I saw more of my vagina today, that was so cool! Yeah, some of the tape came off after the one of the nurses did an ultrasound on me as per my request to check my burning bladder yesterday. Results were 14ml.
I was like, wow when I saw more of it today.

Another doctor helped me secure my pelled back bandages today. She said that the nurse said she didn't pull the tape back, the doc suggested that it got loose on its own, not wanting to argue, I went with the story.

Although, I bring up the fact that it did get loose during an ultrasound after a couple of other nurses made their round.

Also, I think a staff was a bit rude to me when I was trying to order breakfast, this could have been a fever dream, but in the morning was apple juice on a tray, the same one we discussed. But, there was no fish though, so maybe it was just a dream when she rudely walked away from me at 3am or something.

Anyway, everything has been pretty awesome today! Thanks for reading!

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