Bad Dream

So, it was like 4am and I was super tired, yet I felt inspired to try and make more money via social casinos, and I lost like $4.99 at American Luck then $17.99 at PulzBingo and I tried to deposit more at another casino but my Discover card stopped me fortunately.
Anyway, I then cut my losses and fell asleep, I had a dream that I felt my cast and then I felt my penis. I was in shock that it was still there and I became very upset and depressed.

I tried to contact Jackpota, which was another online casino in hopes of contacting my doctor, doctor Weinstein about how sad I feel about my penis still being there despite the surgery.

(Side note, in reality thanks to jackpota I turned my last $100 into $300 and that's how I was able to pay for my surgery deposit).

Anyway, back to my dream. But then I was concerned about them sending me to the mental hospital.

The a snippet of a video played, a short haired familiar looking doctor in Ocala was talking about how all her patients end up at the Mental Hospital then at her door.

Then, I think I had a dream that rent was overdue and we had 5 hours to move out, which is kinda reality because rent is overdue.

Anywayz, I wake up to 2 nurses and I tell them that I had a dream that it was still there, and the purple hair nursed assured me that it wasn't there anymore and that made me feel happier.

Also, in my dream I made like $78 on Global Poker casino, darn I wish that was reality, lol.

I'm just happy that I have a pussy right now, money has become quite irrelevant now.

Also, my brother and I watched Wicked.

Thanks for reading!

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