Money back


While being depressed and stuff earlier today, I told myself, "You can always make more money, but you can't make another Alie".

Then hours of gameplay strategy later, it me. I got a jackpot on fortunate coins casino, and I cashed out $785. It was such a blessing. I then deactivated my listing for my camera and smartphone. I realized, God really does love me after all. 

I also noticed while getting on my red jacket that my mom left a note on my bedside table saying like that we have $200 on the card.
She also talked to me about it while I was in bed last night, but I didn't notice the note till hours after I woke up.
The note, that was really touching and uplifting.

Now I feel more confident to be able to pay the copay for my surgery, I feel more happy.

Side note, I accidentally told my mom that I was gay multiple times last month on April 2nd. I was like, I'm doing Gay, I mean I'm good.

I'm gay, I mean I'm better than gay, I'm me.

I was like that. That was after I was talking with my youngest sibling, she was like "you can come out as gay to mommy". And then I accidentally did it, lol. I'm not even gay, I'm Bi.

 Which reminds me of when I was telling my mom that I want to be feminine and stuff and that my weight loss was on purpose, she was like, "Alan, I already know that". And, I was going to ask you about that (the hidden girl clothes I had in my drawer). 

Ultimately, she was like, "so you're non-binary, who isn't?".

That was so awesome of her ♡

Anyway, thanks for reading!

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