FFS Home Recovery Day 4

First wake up, 7am

Last wake up, 9:34am

Slept on right side, so right side is puffier. 

On my first wake up I had a dream of a wealthy business man who at the age of 104 opted to get a body transplant of a 97 year old woman in order to live the rest of their life as their trueself. Before, they were a bit gay, but inside they really felt like a woman. It showed a picture of them doing tricks on the bench in like a 3 image merge montage in a grey business suit.

The dreams on my second and 3rd sleep involved going outside with my sisters.

 I went to find my 2nd eldest, however she didn't have my 2nd youngest sister with her as anticipated, so I got scared and went to tell my mom. But, then I remembered that it was a dream and she's safe in real life.

Also in my dream, there was like this drunk woman we encountered during our park woods outing. She was standing and walking on a power line tower. We were telling her to get off. She refused.

I was going to call 911, but another woman already called. Then the shierf police came to take her in. I told him, thanks for finally coming.

Then at one point the police was inside the house. I was pretty chill about it.

Also, there was one point in my dream where we were at the mall, there was the boys section with Legos and stuff, then on the other side near the exit door was (my second eldest sister said hi to me when writing this segment)

Anyway, the other side was pink with a big pink butterfly 🦋 decor on the wall.

And there was glittery clothes on some rack hangers.

I saw what looked like black leotards, but they didn't have leotard bottoms, so they may have just been tight long sleeve shirts.

My 2nd eldest sister was

 ((I heard a woman say "oh my god" in the distance when writing this segment. I went to check on everyone, they were all okay and most sleeping, maybe it was from outside?))

Anyway, my 2nd eldest sister was exploring the girl part of the mall. I looked at the girl clothes and said something like, "I don't want any of this stuff" almost like in denial. 

It's funny because, it has been the shame and denial that's lead me to self medicating with experimental hrt and stuff.

Anyway, I'm happy where I'm at now with myself. I can't wait for the swelling to go down. And tomorrow is my post-op appointment, maybe then I can finally have these staples removed!

Also, yesterday I had a dream in which my eldest sister had a vanilla frosty like drink in the car and I went to throw it away for her,  however the packaging of the drink was clear and it had blue and pink elements, which reminded me of the trans flag, lol.

Also, my dad was at home in my dream, as if mom brought him back and changed her mind about the divorce, lol.

Anyway, thanks for reading!