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Quiting HRT Temporarily TransFeminine Diary Entry

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Okay, I've decided to quit HRT starting October 27th, 4 days after my 1 year HRT anniversary. This is because I want to reduce the risk of blood clots and stuff following my Scoliosis Spine Surgery on November 27th. Don't worry, I won't do this spine surgery on myself. I'll be put-under and taken care of by a team of Professional Doctors. It is going to be so hell hard to quit these Estradiol & Spironolactone saviors of mine, but I want to reduce the risk of bleeding out or other surgical complications this time. Weird, I got a mysterious no answer call from Florida when writing that last part. Anywho, I plan to resume the HRT about 2 weeks after my spine is held together with metal plates. Oh yeah, who's the Artistic Futuristic CyberPunk Metallic Cyborg Chick now? •◇□◇□◇° Anyway, I hope the Surgery in Gainesville, Florida, works out okay. It'll be amazing to go wake up without a 66-degree curve in my spine. Hopefully, this would eventually lead ...

Nearly killed myself a couple of days ago by attempting self-castration, again.

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Though I nearly killed myself a couple of days ago by attempting self-castration, again. I'm feeling much better, thanks to y'all positive messages & family talk last night. Thank you all to those who have helped me with my difficult feelings and thoughts of mutilation and death. It is true that we can't risk death on doing self-surgery. These gender surgeries can be done professionally. Last night, my family discussed with me getting actual gender surgery in January after my spine surgery in November. I'm grateful that I'm still alive. Depression mixed with desperation is a true beast. It leads me to dangers ideas and actions. Please be easy on the negative feedback y'all, I take things very literally thanks to my body dysphoria and OCD. Like in 2020, when someone committed about me not being 'beautiful',  I took it to the extreme and took life threatening online-brought breast growth pills for 9 months straight  until I couldn't tak...

My Family Talked to Me about The Diy Surgery ♡ #TransFeminine #TransFem surgery #SRS

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My Family Talked to Me about The Diy Surgery ♡ I sent my mom and dad about my attempt last night to castrate myself, but I got messed up by the Tylenol and tiredness so I didn't go through with it. In response to the text I sent, my dad called me, and my mom and siblings joined the conversation. Towards the end, we group hugged. Ultimately the surgical supplies were thrown away and we have planned real hospital stuff, a professional & better way. Thank you all for all your compassion and support ♡♡♥︎♡♡ VideoLink #notfeelingwell #srs #grs #nonbinary #medicalstudent #gendersurgery #eunuch #cosmeticsurgery #transgirlsofinstagram #TransGirl #tgirlsofinstagram #tgirls #Sissy #Femboy #Femboyfriday #Gothgirl #Gothicgirl #animecosplay #traps #CosplayGirl #gothsoftiktok #Cosplay #emogirl #cosplaygirls #cosplayersofinstagram #pantyhose #cosplayergirl #emogirl

TransFeminine Failed DIY Castration Attempt Elastrator Fail.

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Greetings, Just to let y'all know. My DIY Gender Surgery: Surgical Supplies Unboxing Video I was going to perform self-surgery last night. The plan was to ultimately remove / kill my testicles. I've lost count of how many times I've attempted this. But, this time, I had the proper equipment. In my research, I've learned that many have bleed out or died. Thanks to lots of research and learning about animal castration methods,  I aimed for an alternative amputation technique. I was going to band and stitch together the top area,  creating a seal and blocking off excess blood from flowing out of my body. The lower portion under the seal, which would be the genitalia, would essentially die off from no circulation. After wound healing on the top portion, I'll remove the lower portion. That was essentially the safest and easiest solution. I had purchased a castration tool specifically made for doing this. I also received other medical supplies such as stitches...