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VagPlay

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I was in the shower and I played with my boobs and vag and it felt pretty good ♡ When I dried off, a white/clear string came out of my vag1na, so that was pretty cool. I've seen it happen a few times before, but this time it was more opaque. My vag kinda stings now even though I was going more gentle with her this time, but I guess she's still healing ♡ Thanks for reading!

12:58am Acetam again

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It's like 3 days since I've had Acetamphinophen, but I finally got it this night after we had the opportunity to get more funds after my mom pawned her jewelry and we were able to pay for the hotel for a week and buy groceries. I asked my mom if I could buy this [Acetamphinophen] she approved, so I thanked her. Today is the 30th of Jan, last times I took Acetamphinophen was the 25th and 26th of Jan at only 2 caps a day instead of my usual 4. Anyway, I'm glad to Acetamphinophen back in my life again. It sure did feel weird taking them, especially two of them again for the first time in a while. Thanks for reading ♡

Stockings

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Earlier today my mom spotted my combination of a bodycon and blue tights. She suggested the black leggings instead, I was like, oh I couldn't find any. She finds one on a hanger I thank her. I check it out, but I wasn't sure if it was mines. She said I could change my dress to match the blue. So I changed my dress to something else by putting another dress upon the bodycon. She liked it, but she's like, "you seem to be resisting the stockings". I was like, oh I found some black ones. So then I put on the black leggings I found in my bag, and it looked pretty good with the blue and white bodycon dress. So then I went down to the lobby for breakfast. Thanks for reading ♡

I brought lady diapers

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I haven't been able to bathe for like two days due to not being able to change my lady diapers since I ran out of them, so I'm glad that I was finally able to buy sime new ones thanks to selling some stock and using some of my OF sales. Thanks for reading! P.S, I ate McDonald's for the first time in a long time using my hands without washing them first in the car because I didn't have utensils, it tasted and felt dirty, but still good. Thanks for reading again! This mocha I brought with stock money.

I spoke with my Therapist again!

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It was so awesome speaking with her again! She liked my eyeliner ♡ she asked if it was to attract men, I was like, yeah well just a quick [tutorial] video. It's like a Kawaii look. She loved it! ♡ We talked about current events going on and jobs and kirby and girl Link mods. I had a lot of fun! Thanks for reading! ♡

Design

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I love the streak across my check to my lip after I wiped my face after eating pretzels. I wiped my face after realizing that TikTok De-Monitized me and IG and everyone is against me because they want me dead, they want everything. They just want me to give up. Haha, haha, hell no, F that.  I'm going to be successful.

Female

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It was pretty cool. I got a qualification survey over the phone, I put the questionnaire lady on speaker as I answered. She was like, I apologize for asking but, do you identify as Female, Male or Non-Binary? I was like, Female ♡ It was pretty funny, because my mommy and everyone else was in the hotel room with me. Rarely do I say I identify as Female in front of them, lol. Anyway, I feel the survey should be fun if I'm chosen. Also, the survey lady and I were both into photography, so that was crazy cool. Thanks for reading!

$1,039.02 Earnings

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Lifetime earnings on my fan base look pretty nice so far. The net take away stings so much, though. They took over $200 ]:

$40 for an Online Casino Survey

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Pretty crazy that I've been selected to participate in a survey about online casinos. The survey was by Dark Horse Insight ICG Internet Cafe Casino group or what not. It was about owning an online casino business. Which is quite the coincidence, because I've been thinking of owning an online casino business all day and all week, so this survey was a good pick. Anyway, it was pretty fun being on the other side of things and learning some insider details such as the casino being able to preset bonuses based on revenue and player spending. Anyway, thanks for reading!

Horrible Investments x Realizations.

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My bro was upset about the financial situation. So I was like, it's okay, it's not your fault. I've made horrible financial investments trying to make more money to get out of our situation. So then my mom said to me,  and you had good intentions, it's not like you boozed up, you know. You didn't do that. I was like, thank you. Also, my mom was motivating us with a speech, like we're going to make it, we do our projects, Alan you make your videos in the bathroom, ect, ect. Also, my mom was asking if they still have the cactus for sale at Publix. I was like, it might be more seasonal since it had snow on it and red/pink flowers. Then I was like, they might have small plants like orchids still.... Then I was like, all my plants are dead... I realized that all my plants from the former apartment are dead, including the orchid my dad gave me for my birthday, the last gift he gave me for my birthday before my orchiectomy. I was trying my best to keep thay...

Shiftsmart shift canceled

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I canceled my shiftsmart shift after I applied to it while at the pawn shop and my bro was pawning the jewelry. After the pawning the jewelry my mom and bro were talking and stuff. My bro said that they got $300. I was like, I didn't even notice the cash, I was too distracted. My mom was like, distracted by what? I was like, Circle K, I was applying there. She's like, you can't work at Circle K, we can't even get gas there (referring to my avoidance of it due to allergens). I was like, yeah I was thinking that I can  wear gloves. It's food prep. My mom was like, that's even worse. So then we agreed to cancel that shift. I was like, it pays $21 in 2 hours though. My mom was like, how much is the emergency room? I was like $200 [: After canceling, all the future shifts disappeared on Shift smart, and I then uninstalled the app. Thanks for reading ♡

Fragments of Fringe

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Late 2pm ezt, My brother and I went into the pawn shop to pawn the jewelry my mom picked out from her collection. The value the shop was going to give up was only $168, not a good deal. We went back to the car to discuss it and stuff. We needed money to pay for the hotel. My mom was asking me to convince my 2nd eldest sister to try and help us out and stuff. I was like, I can try. We then talked more about pawning stuff. I then brought up, we can make more money if we do inappropriate stuff. This upset my mom, and she was saying that she doesn't want her children doing that. She's like, it'll be one thing if it's legal in one state, like let me pose in a window. So then, we talked more about pawning stuff and financial struggle. Then I say in a sultry voice, we can make money if we... My mom was like, if we do what??? I was like, we can make more money if we do fringe stuff. And when it's over we can.. ("wash our hands of it" I was about to say before my m...

Wendy's interview

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Not much of an interview, I was only given a form to fill out, but it was still good practice. Also, the pen was sticky and oily, lol. Thanks for reading!

McDonald's Job Interview

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I'd say the McDonald's Job Interview went pretty slay. I talked about my work history and detail orientation and stuff, so I was pretty relaxed and talked slowly. My and Social Security ID, I provided,  I was like I gotta get that changed when I handled it over to the manager lady. [Why changed? I look like a total boy in the picture]. My hair kinda bothered me that I couldn't get it how I wanted, so I might have to cut it off. Also, I blow dried my hair earlier today for the first time since forever on my TikTok Live, so that was pretty fun! Thanks for reading! Thanks for

-$209.62

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Just as I feared, that $209 extra in my account was a mistake, so when I spent that several days ago trying to double it, it worked for the first time but not the second time, it didn't pan out right so I lost like $400 and like $80 in loans. And now I see this negative -$209 on my One pay account. If only I doubled it and returned it to my account, I'll have a positive $200+ right now, like I had envisioned. It's alright, I can't change the past. Thanks for reading!

I got milk!

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After hours of surveys [regarding Breast implants, plastic surgery and BestBuy] I was finally able to buy Milk at Publix, yes! $5.39 purchase, $0.11 cents to spare! ♡ I'd like to thank my dear Brother for driving me to Publix, then another Publix because the previous one was closed. I thought the 2nd one was closed as well, but then my bro noticed that a lady was successfully able to enter the store, so that was a beautiful sign! The hours long breast implants survey paid me $3, the BestBuy survey paid me like $1.50 and I already had about $1.68 on my Swagbucks account, so then I was able to redeem a PayPal card for $5 using $5.30 worth of Swagbucks. Then on PayPal, I now had $5.36, so then I added the remaining $0.14 cents from my Exparin card to PayPal which then granted me $5.50. Anyway, it was a busy day, but at least I was finally able to reach my goal of getting milk in the end. Thanks for reading!

I did a study on Tinder

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It was kinda embarrassing, because I had to introduce myself and my Tinder use. The AI voiced narrator of the study, she's like alright Allen, let's talk about your Tinder use. My mom looked kinda shocked, my siblings thought the study was funny. In the end, I checked on my mom. She was like, I didn't know it was Tinda, I was shocked. But, I'm not going to judge. Nowadays, people just meet on TikTok. I was like, yeah.. Thanks for reading!

Skull Girl

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I learned that on Userinterviews I was marked as a no show on the study I stayed up all night for completing.  Being denied my $29 I worked hours for and waited days for was so upsetting that it was the final nail in the coffin of my depression spiral this week. So then I decided to dray a Skull Girl to calm my nerves. I made her with a red outfit that was kinda liberating because it reminded me of the girly glitterly red gymnastics leotard I wore as a kid and my farther got kinda mad about that and ordered me to change my clothes, lol. It was a bit embarrassing, I'm not going to lie, my sisters were laughing and stuff at me. But anyway, I drew the Skull Girl rocking in Red, then I went down to the lobby to get coffee for my eldest sister and I. Right when I was about to exit I was thinking about my Starbucks gift card, if it arrives I can upgrade the drink to Starbucks. Then it arrived right on the dot, 5:19pm, weird, I thought. I figured I'll save it for later. I then go down...

I completed a survey on breast augmentation

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Interestingly enough, I randomly selected a survey on Swagbucks yesterday and it just happened to be about breast augmentation, so that was pretty cool. I lost my survey page after my laptop shutdown before going out to my interview yesterday. It was only supposed to be in sleep mode. Later that day, my pyschiatrist updated my surgery clearance letters for my rhinoplasty and breast augmentation for me, so I sent them to my surgery team and thanked her. Anyway, I was able to restore the survey today and complete it. It was a pretty interesting survey, and they presented me with photos of different breast shapes post implants, so that was a helpful guide for me to use in real life I guess, it gave me a feel of what I was looking for, I wanted a natural full look. Anyway, after a couple of hours, the survey was completed and I was compensated 300 SB which is about $3 USD Dollars. Also, earlier the hotel lobby breakfast lady loved my outfit, she said that I always h...

I used a new flat iron

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I used my new flat iron for like an hour on Bigo live because TikTok big time banned me low-key with 0 views. So I headed to Bigo to at least get a few views [509 views in the end] and I proceded to do my hair then eventually flat iron it and sing some original songs I came up with in the moment such as "Only my fans know how far I'm willing to go!" "Go ahead activate me put the quarter in the slot. Pour the sugar in the cup. But only fans know how far I'm willing to go". It's a little funny, my siblings and mom heard me singing in the bathroom, lol. Also, the Revlon 2in flat iron burnt my left fingers, mostly my thumb, och. The flat iron was also making a ton of smoke. But anyway, it was a pretty fun morning. Thanks for reading!