MintCoaTea

I hate myself so much! I purchased a $7.99 pack from Pulz that grants $10 in play and I lost it all. I bloody feel like dying right now, my money on my study gift card has gone down to about $3 dollars. I wasted like $90 on gambling tonight, F this!!! If you're feeling depressed like me, please call 988. Thank you.

I lost like $82 at real prize casino. I was baited with their $29.99 for $75 deal, so I brought that and got down to $5, I felt ashamed and couldn't even cash out until $45, so I brought the $51.99 for $60 something deal and lost that as well, a broom even feel and hit my shoulder while I was playing evo play American Sevens, more like dead spins sevens, I've lost so much there.  I feel so shaken and terrible, I got that money from the raw and emotional Foster Care study that took me like 3 hours to complete and I waited weeks for the $150 [$142.50 after fees] to arrive. And now that it has arrived it looks like most of it is gone in a night. I just tried to double my money and stuff, but I ended up losing all of it, I hate RealPrize!!!! At least I was able to get my Health Insurance renewed first so it's not a total loss. But, I couldn't get the home internet plan I was looking forward to for about $60. I did the head math that I'll have like $63 left after buying ...

Once again while inside of Publix I renewed my Insurance plan right on the Due date this date. I received the $142.50 incentive from the Foster Care study tonight so I used that moments later to pay off my health insurance policy.  Earlier, we explored the storage unit and my brother pointed out that he found my bag that I was looking for. I looked into my green bucket and into that bag and found the things I needed, I even found unexpected though highly needed lady diapers which I can finally change into a new once once I get some since I've been in the same one for 2 days, but anyway I also found my green panties and bra which were going to be the first real pretty panties and bra I wear since vaginoplasty.  However my first real pretty panties and bra I ended up wearing since vaginoplasty ended up being some sexy red and black ones which I wore on the 14th...