Posts

Showing posts from December, 2025

I won $680

Image
4:08pm I won $680 with Fortune Coins today! I turned $24 bonus play into $680! I feel much better now. Thanks for reading ♡ P.S. After I talked to my therapist about being rejected by Hooter's because of my trans status, my therapist told me I have the body for it (Hooter's), so that made me feel supe5 confident ♡ Watch out clubs!

Therapy Session

Image
Not wanting to do the therapy session in the hotel room with my family, I opted to go with my laptop. My mom recommended that I go to the car to do the session. Then my brother went with me to help set it up. I was a bit nervous with him hearing my personal stuff. He later asked if I wanted the privacy, I was like, that's okay. Anyway, the session went pretty well, and the therapist had to ask about my reasoning behind the rhinoplasty and breast augmentation due to insurance requirements. I was like, I want to make my nose look more feminine and after years of hormones I'm still flat chested. It was fun talking to my therapist, I also opened up about the financial situation and stuff, she understood. Then my laptop died of battery loss so I had to leave, I let my bro know that it was time to go. He had his headphones on so at least he wasn't able to hear the therapy session much. I setup my laptop upstairs in the hotel room to continue the session, ironically in the same ro...

Publix Trip x Xplay

Image
I walked to publix earlier today around 8am and brought some women's razors, let me tell you, those razors cut all over my face when I tried them out, ouch. Also, last night I explored my body and played with my boobies and pulady, then I took selfies. I was so amazed with the anatomy of my puzzy when I opened her up and had to post this on my 0F "This has had to been the most open I've seen my vagy, she's certainly an inspiring and awing sight to see internally and externally, but internally she's so organic and just so naturally natal looking that it's beautiful! My eyes water with joy at just how natural my vagina is. Thanks so much for your support everyone, I'm like a natural woman.". Anyway, shopping at Publix was so fun!

imp

Image
Yesterday late night, like late 11pm (12-26-25), I was singing Helluza Boss mastermind in the lobby family bathroom, then I was like "let the imp take the blame", then I accidentally scratched my right caf when pulling down my bottoms, lol. After using the bathroom I went up stairs and took a shower at around 1am and I played with my boobs and vaggy so hard, and I was like cursing so much because it felt so good! Today, I noticed some brown in my underwear, possibly blood, but far less than usual, I don't care, I had hella fun! Thanks for reading!

Xmas

Image
Despite my neck injury & hurtful gambling losses the night before, Christmas was still fun, I'm glad I pulled things together and stayed jovial with family, that's something nothing can take from me. I'm happy that I still had enough funds to get xmas gifts with my brother for the fam prior to the incident, so my assets from last night wasn't a total sacrifice to the casino, at least we got gitfts and dinner. Also, Thanks for the Bulbasaur big bro, I love her! And thank yu to all my followers for your love and support!!!  Anyway, Thanks for reading and happy holidays, ho, ho ho3!  [First time I used Anime Studio 12 since puzzy surgery, I made a demon girly named Satalan. Cupcakey Fried chicken from a restaurant open on Xmas. Bouncy balls from a vending machine. I gave the yellow one to my brother as a gift, these were like our childhood toys. Thanks for reading, again! #gothgirl #transgender #al...

Ooops... I cut my neck open...

Image
1:28am. "Ooops" That's what I said when I 0pened up my neck. The regret of it all, I realized how short my life was, Ooops was all I can say in that moment. I was depreszed, I was shaving, I was thinking about my losses gambling, then it happened.  I really didn't want to do it tonight, yet it happened tonight. I felt lile everything was my fault, I simply just tried to make more monsy with the money I saved up and stuff, yet I failed again, and I was thinking, that's it, we're done.  Then I began to shave and then I thought about the $200 loss at Crown coins casino last week (that loss was before tonight's $437 loss which really drove me into desperation and depression).  Anyway, the incident happened and I said to myself, oops, then stormed out of the bathroom to grab some paper towels for my leaking neck. Obviously, my mom and brother were really upset with what I did to my neck, and I was like, I didn't mean to do it today, not this way...

I lost $27.99 1:15am

Image
I lost another $27.99, this time from FortuneCoins casino, these sites are hurting me, my depression is at it's peak once more.

I had to use a pad for my nose

Image
Mid 6pm est, I had to use a pad to clean my nose because I got a runny nose after eating chips and pretzels sticks, and I didn't bring tissues with me on the car trip, thus I used the pad I had in my purse. My mom actually suggested that I keep an extra pad with me a couple of months ago right because we went to see the final fantasy orchestra, so I'm glad that the pad in the purse came in handy. Thanks Mommy! Anyway, it was interesting using a femme sanitary pady to blow my nosy. Thanks for reading! Edit, original post date: December 21st, 2025. The post didn't publish for some reason.

I lost $410 dollars

Image
I just want to die, it's 12:48am, it's Christmas, but I just feel like death wish. I lost $10 on hellomillions.com which lead to a series of purchases at SpinBlitz of like $400 dollars. And this has already happened before, like 2 days ago when I almost lost $200 but successfully chased my losses for a withdrawal of like $600 and a half, like a $200+ Profit and the $600 something came just in time for Christmas. At least my brother and I got to get some gifts before SpinBlitz murdered the funds. I also blame my OnlyFans client Jordan, because the customer sent a chargeback on their purchase from two months ago, to which they enjoyed the content. I lost $15.20 and I felt so hurt and empty, especially since it hurt my kitty filming the scene. I feel like I want to die for the holidays. There's only depression now, and now I can't pay to extend the hotel room for my family. I think I'll live a few more days or weeks probably then do something serious to myself. ...

3:29pm I lost $101

Image
I lost $101 dollars on Sixty6 casino.  I originally won $94 off of a playson gold pot game off a $0.4 bet off of free coins. Then I deposited $20 to eventually make the withdrawal minimum of $100. I tried to withdraw $101, but I couldn't until verification was completed, this was 3 days ago. I won this money while on my appointment trip 3 days ago. Today, I received an email from sixty6 casino invitating me for my daily bonus of $0.1 ten cents. I then got the urge to try and make more money with my $101 balance. Playng the Hacksaw games were my downfall, they just didn't payout. It started with pray for 3, then a couple of backstreet/bull shark gaming games like the banana and barrels games, then the rest of my money finally died with the frnk banana game. Gosh, I hate the Sixty6 site so much, the win back is so so low after you initially win something. I was just hoping to get boobs and pay for this hotel we're now living in. Gosh, F my life. Why go...

12:57pm drank tea again for first time since SRS

Image
I drank tea again for the first time since SRS, it tastes pretty cool. It's black tea with water and whole milk. Thanks for reading!

Scar Tissue

Image
So since the chemical cautery of a few days ago during my last appointment, I've experienced some dark/black bits of scar tissue coming out of my puzsy.  I think I left the nitrate gauze in for too long, like I took it out of me at like night, and the appointment was in the morning. Anyway, with so many black bits coming out out of me, and one getting on my finger nail accidentally, I wondered if my clicky was still stimulatey. So while on the toilety, I touched around down there by feeling the lips gently and I felt some activity, so she definitely still purrs. This was a little before 10:39am, I'm glad things are still working, I was worried that I lost my clicky clitty kitty, lol. As of now, less black bits are coming out of me, fortunately. Thanks for reading!

I brought Tea

Image
I brought Tea with my money for the first time since vaginoplasty surgery. I brought the tea when shopping at Publix with my Mommy. She got a buy one get one free Twingings English Breakfast and she asked me if I wanted tea. I spilled the tea on that I used to get the peppermint tea to lower my testosterone. She quietly hushed me, and said you don't have to worry about that anymore. I fully agreed, as I was thinking and talking about the same thing. In the end I went with a Darjeeling black tea ♡ She said, yeah I think it's Indian, after I sounded out the name just now. Thanks for reading!

Walmart Trip with my Mom

Image
I went shopping at Walmart with my Mom, it was very fun. We brought essentials and gifts and feminine hygiene stuff. I brought pads for my youngest and Women's Lady Diapers for me ♡ Before the store, my 2nd eldest sister told me about the different sized pads, so that was pretty helpful for me. Anyway a bit after when my mom brought the pads, I ran off to get the diapers real quick, "I'll get something real quick" my mom followed me. I selected the 19 pack, then the 36 pack. My mom told me that there were more in the back, I was like, oh. I got size small/medium, my mom acknowledged the size I picked up. My mom asked why I ran off to get them, she already knows about it.  I was like, well, I didn't want you to have to move, um, I tried to make it secret [or something like that]. LoL. Anyway, we had a fun shopping day. I did a little bit gambling while shopping. I lost $50 at MegaBonanza, so I put $100 into SpinBlitz and lost and...